Sunday, May 1, 2011

I dnt knw where abt to begin. It such a long waiting. Cse I knw, by not seing u, the biggest disaster will happen. I've been wondering ages ago, why must this kind of things will kept repeating. When u walked out the door, only god knows how I feel. It just like a meat tht has been cut into pieces. U nvr did tht bfre, and its hard fr me to believe tht ure doing it. A night tht I couldn't accept anymore. I tend to leave and I did. The first time ever, I had the gut to let the sentence come out frm the mouth but the truth it was not truly frm the heart. Its hard for me, really really hard. I really have to do it this time.

As wht I expected, u always came when there is nothing left. The effort will always make me think twice but for god sake, why it always has to be when its already over ? I just want u to be like when u are really showing up ur effort. Cse I really need it. For me, the effort shows everything. U really driving me crazy, and I almost give up which I actually did but god really shows me the path. I rather be alone crying over the thing tht I shouldn't. Why must we run into all the messed over again and kept listening to the promises, and knowing it will not last long. Ppl will always ask, is it worth it after all ? I will be a statue and speechless and also clueless. God, help me.

Sometimes we just have to leave the person we love for good, but when he really looking back for u, he actually needed u in his life.

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