U make me smiles, u make me sad,
u make me laugh , u make me cried ,
u make me feels like I am the only happy girl in this world , u make me feels the pain tht u put me through ,
u make me feels I am at the top of the mountain , u make me feel down the hill,
u make me to fogive u when u did wrong , u make me as if im reaching the limit to let u go ,
u make me think there is no other option , u make me think twice,
u make me wake up from my sleep and realised tht I am living in a reality where I am in love with the only man which is u, Rahim mohd.

When I first met u , I said to myself , with a person like u , I dnt think I can hold on for so long. But god is fair , trying to prove tht wht ppl tought will not always right without his permission. Bcse everything tht happen has already been wrote by him. Through ups and downs , we have been through alot of things together . The time past by too fast , and I can't believe tht we have already pass our 1 year moment . The truth , we have alot more to learn and to understand each other better. So , I hope we can make it for another year.

As u knw , I'll always love u even we always fight and my heart almost can't be fixed with wht u had done to me but the truth , ur love is so strong and I can't stop from loving u. Thnks for being there for me . I love you , sayang.

HAPPY 1ST YEAR ANNIVESSARY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I've been blessed with beautiful friends . Eventhough it was a simple celebration , I really appreciate it and I am happy with it. When the taught is there , everything tht happen will make u smile . Thanks people , u knw tht I always love you and no matter wht I will be hold on to it as long as I can .

Well , I am now turning 19th . No more 18-ish , so kiddy . My birthday went well but not as great as if Rahim could join us celebrating it with me. But I couldn't denied tht if it happen without my friends, it will be worst . Cse they were always with me through ups and downs. Anyway ,I was kinda upset , I couldn't hold up my tears . I was never stop wishing for my boi to come back , came up all out of sudden on my door and surprise me but for god sake, it won't happen cse hes thousand miles away . It is suck when ur special person in ur life are are not with u on ur special day and it was even ur first year annivessary . Too bad , I couldn't ask for more , I have to face it . So please baby, make sure u make me feels like I am the special girl ever in the world when u come back here .

Last but not least, once again , thnkyou for all those who wished and I really appreciate it. Thnks for making my day like Im the only happy person in the world. Love u guys :)

Transform

BEFORE

AFTER

At last i've cut my hair after so long wanting it. I din't regret cse it something new after had a same old style of hair :)

Anyway , final exam had already started. Arghh, my first Business Communication paper was being an ass to me. Im so gonna get low mark for it. Oh god, pls not. Tmoro will be my last paper :) Organisation Behaviour paper pls be nice to me. I hope I can do it , wish me luck :)

I am missing you

Its hard for me to let him go ystrdy. I was speechless and have know idea on what we’re trying to talk about. When we sat in the car , we were like a statue, got nothing to say and the truth, I won’t be able to look at his face even for a second. Bcse I knw if I did it , the tears won’t stop falling down. Yes I know, its only for few days. Its not that he went away for a month or a year but I just don’t know why my feelings turns to be that way. Come on Lena, its only 4 days, it isn’t tht long tho . I realised tht but hey, tht is not the problem man. It just sad to know that ure byfren are not gonna be around on ur coming special day. It is in another 2 days and he left.

Honestly , I really want him to be with me on this Friday but tht is so impossible, Im telling you here. I thought he will be around celebrating with me for the second time, on the second year, on our first year anni but it turns the other way around . Wake up Lena, u just have to accept the fact . Its not tht U dnt have anybody around to celebrate with. Yeah im chilling right now………cool man cool.

Oh boy, I just wanna see u on the day u landed here and it is a MUST . The truth , I am the one who scared if I will be the one who couldn’t make it , hmm. Bismillah , I hope I can make it ;’)

Take care ,I Love You sayang <3

bitter heart

Never thought those words will come out frm the one tht I really loves for almost past a year. A person who could think of me in that way, after all ? He was the first person who ever spilt those words right infront of my face. The person who I love and nvr thought of hearing those word from his mouth, and just done that. Ur sarcasm glanced was awful enough. My heart totally stop beating , im running out of tears. Now, the only things tht left, was only a piece of my bitter heart. Say wht ever u want, cse every word tht u said will nvr bring any changes to me anymore. That's wht I thought when the last time we're argued, u promised me all over again. I've already knw u will break it but I just dnt knw why, I still let u in but honestly, I've never hold on to ur words since tht day. Don't u blame the statement of 'misunderstanding'.

I might not knw u well, but any miny tiny things tht I knw abt u will always be right.

well-day

Im on my bed, so exhausted. After sleeping very early on every each day of this week , now I feel so tired when its already 12 o'clock and I am still not sleep.

Well, I really spend my week with him after I've been left alone by him fr the entire of last week. So yeah, I lock him fr a lil while to really spend my time with him. Today, my class got cancel. It sucks to knw tht after I rushed myself to college and found out the class was cancel. I was so pissed and somemore it was such a hot weather just now. I was actually thought tht I hve to wait for Mai till her class finish but I dnt hve too. So I proceed with my plan to One Utama with my love. When we early and without plan , we starts to walk arnd until we dnt knw where to go. Sucks to knw tht, till nw I dnt really remember places in OU -.-'

Anyway we watched Fast & Furious 5. It was totally awesome. No movie can beat tht ! It is just too good to describe. U guys just have to watch it cse its really worth it. When u watch once, I bet, u will go for twice :)

Im really tired tho, need to sleep and take a long rest. Goodnight :)

Genting Highland, 2011

After so long i've been asking for it. Yeahh at last we made it. I love you baby :)

Bagan Lalang, Sepang
Sunday evening. A lovely gathering, after its been quite hard to get everybody going out at the same time due to each other commitment towards their own life. Love ya girls.

Exam on last Friday did not went well. I was just so careless for not bringing my exam slip with me. Almost reach MSU, and I have to go all the way back home for the slip. I almost can't sit fr the exam since I was kind a late but I was so lucky the examiner was being fair enough towards me. I sat on my chair, I was so nervous cse it was my first time being late for exam . Everything on the table dropped down. Oh come on, the table is so small to put all my thangggs. The examiner came to me and said : Chill laa, jgn gelabah sgt kalau msk lmbt pn. I wasss likee, tutttttt.............. Zzz -.-' Anyway , 1 and a half hour wasn't enough , knowing me . Haih, so I kinda screwed up my first exam for my midsem. Urghhh , I was so frustrated knowing tht I can do so much better.

Everything tht happen on tht day and the day bfre was just a like a dissaster to me.

I dnt knw where abt to begin. It such a long waiting. Cse I knw, by not seing u, the biggest disaster will happen. I've been wondering ages ago, why must this kind of things will kept repeating. When u walked out the door, only god knows how I feel. It just like a meat tht has been cut into pieces. U nvr did tht bfre, and its hard fr me to believe tht ure doing it. A night tht I couldn't accept anymore. I tend to leave and I did. The first time ever, I had the gut to let the sentence come out frm the mouth but the truth it was not truly frm the heart. Its hard for me, really really hard. I really have to do it this time.

As wht I expected, u always came when there is nothing left. The effort will always make me think twice but for god sake, why it always has to be when its already over ? I just want u to be like when u are really showing up ur effort. Cse I really need it. For me, the effort shows everything. U really driving me crazy, and I almost give up which I actually did but god really shows me the path. I rather be alone crying over the thing tht I shouldn't. Why must we run into all the messed over again and kept listening to the promises, and knowing it will not last long. Ppl will always ask, is it worth it after all ? I will be a statue and speechless and also clueless. God, help me.

Sometimes we just have to leave the person we love for good, but when he really looking back for u, he actually needed u in his life.