time of my life

Last night was awesome. after like a long time, this is the scnd time i really had fun in the club fr this year. Having fun with de byfrn and both loves and not to forget Adam. Oh and also Qila eventhough she came in late. At first I can't really put my butt in the club , I dnt knw why. But after awhile, I can go with the flow. The night just past by as the time flies.

thankgod day

Thnkgod, I've done with my economy assignment last night . Eventhough I was late for it, im thankful tht i've made it.

Thnkgod again, I felt so much better now. Things getting better and falls on a right place. I guess it worth my patient. Hope he really understand and get the point now. I knw I can't hold on to this for so long but wht am I gonna do is try to be patient as long as I can. This relationship of mine is just different among the others I had bfre, I dnt knw how to explain it but it just a different one. Sometimes, im tired of it but at times, I really want to hold on to it. The love tht he shows me for the past 7 months was something tht I nvr had bfre. Thats the reason why am I still here with u bby.

Done talking, Ive got alot of assingment to get done by this Friday. Dammit, im so lazy to work on my IT assingment cse im just not into IT subject, heh. Anyway, new year is just arnd the corner. Still not done planning, but I dnt feel like partying on new year's eve, I just wanna go somewhere peace.
Still thinking.

Pulau Penang

So basicly im at hotel right now which is 2.22am in the morning. Everybody are busy sleeping while im busy online, great !

I went to pulau part of Penang this evening. On my way to the ferry, I saw this one stall's named, Roti Canai Rahim. I laughed and after awhile I started to stare and I just realised tht I really miss him actually. Its been almost a week, I was not talking to him. Haih, im still in my term of curing. I just hope hes doing fine,heh.


Along the way, I saw the sawah padi. Sangat hijau and luas. Sedap nya hati memandang. As I reached the ferry, the weather was so fine. Its very windy. I was wearing my dress, terpaksa la cover so tht make sure kain ku tak terbang -.- haih, best nya ada ats air, rasa mcm tknk klua dr ferry td. Naseb baik sempat tgk ombak air since sampai sana dh agk lambat and tak sempat nk ke pantai. Im so frustrated but I have to deal with it since we were short of time. The best part, i've got to go the Penang street. It was more than enough. But the worst part, im still miss-ing the beach. I wished i could go the beach and seat at sea shore waiting for the sunset. It will absolutely makes my life in peace as in I am without any problem.

How I wished,

fact

To everyone, Boyfriend, girlfriend, bestfriend, friend, brother, sister , ohh easy said everyone. Let make this clear with this fact tht turn out frm my heart.

When u're happy with someone, u doesn't care everything tht happen. U will share evrythng with them, no matter wht. U will go everywhre with them, toilet, shopping, hangout, gossiping, or even on the phone or texting 24/7. U will non-stop smiling or laughing infront of them. U will nvr have the feelings of hurting them with ur words or doing.

When it comes to the WORLD WAR 3,everythng is just falling apart. U're still doesn't care, but this time it meants wht ever fucking shit things they wanna do, will nvr u care. U din't go everywhre together anymore, u will stop smilling and starts show faces tht everybody dnt wanna see. U will accidently hurting them with those words tht came out frm ur mouth or ur wrong doing.

Anyway, if u guys read this carefully, it is a #fact right ? Hey wake up, u dnt want to loose the ppl tht u love. If u really dnt care, it meants tht u want them to dissapear frm ur life. Are u sure this is wht u really want ? Lets try, put urself far awy frm the ppl tht u love. Just take a few days, nahh just make it 3 days, it will be more than enough or else u will just be in a place u dnt belong. Wht will u feel between those 3 days? Will u start looking fr the person tht u actually really love? Would u realise tht u shouldn't throw them away in the first place ?

It happens, so let this be ur lesson and always remember tht, dnt simply thrown awy those ppl tht u actually love with all ur hearts. When u care, it meants something. Don't u ever question it back.

Renung-renung kan, thnkyou.

does it change ?

On certain things, love can't change everything. Someone told me it does :

"He cries, n practically say he loves someone. He is actually understanding the importance of u. He told me he wants to work to earn money n marry u."

;'(

does fate still occur ?

Am i killing someone ? God, help me. Im lost. This is the only way, i hve to learn and u hve to learn something. If we're meant for each other thts wht we called fate, and it will appear soon.

Penang, here I am. Its not like wht i've expected but at least im far awy frm Subang right now. I need to work on my assignment anyway. Less burden to think when im busy doing smthng else.

I need rest for awhile, Goodbye.

♥ ♥

crappy

Before im away to Penang, theres alot of thing to say.

Firstly, my finger isn't in good condition yet and to be more clear, it isn't straight anymore -.-

Second, my assignment are still not done !

Third, i'll be missing my friend even we're just not the same anymore. Alot of hidden problem which is still not discovered.

Fourth, I wanna spend my time with him bfre I go but i knw it will not happen, heh.

Fifth, I was online frm just now and im getting headache right now. Zeze.

Not tht much as u think.

where is my simcard?

I think i really lost my simcard, yes nice job done by me :( Thnkyou very much, heh.

I have no idea what am I trying to do. Anyway, tmoro im going far from here. Chettt, tak jauh mana pon sbnr nya but yeah, I want to go to the beach . Its been a long time I din't go for vacation. Its time for me to rest :S Byebye subang !

I just wanna run awy from u, this is wht we both want, just to feel how does it go even i knw i can't live without u. What am i trying to do is learn to live without u cse somewhere somehow we'll be seperated, god knows tht *the truth. I knw hes trying the best but u knw, wht i really want right ? Enough said, be good , take a good care of urself. These will make u open ur eyes wider, think out of the box. U will thank me someday.

Always love,

its not me

What was im thinking man ? Wht I really want actually? I just can't think straight, since when ? Haih. I dnt knw wht am I doing right now. The truth, I really do miss him .

images

Oh i crap alot last night, been so loud and laughed till my stomach can't handle it anymore. Anyway enjoy some of the pictures.

any plan to run off

The last post i blogged was on Monday and today it is still Monday. B-O-R-I-N-G ! Im on holiday today, I thot there's gonna be a plan to run off, unfortunately there's no plan at all. So, now im stucked at TTDI trying to work out on my assignment. Actually, I am not really in the mood for doing any assignment. Wanted to go out but im running out of money, for god sake, my dad just gave me RM25 for this week. How am I gonna survive dude? so yeahh, I have to stay at home, I guess.

I had a great event yesterday. FORMULA KL DRIFT was awesome :) Tawiel got me and Rhm 2 normel ticket but we end up yesterday at the grand stand seated, coooooolllll. I went there alone by public trnsprt, oh god, its been a long time I din't get a public trnsprt from Subang. But yeah im safe along the journey, thnkgod. As usual, Rhm was late again and again. I had to wait for almost 40 mnts alone, damn u. Luckily im in a good mood and im not mad towards him at all. Ohh too many things tht made me alive ystrdy, sheeeeshhh. But not really enjoying it since I had to control myself. Its okaaaay, I dnt really need the enjoyment since I've alrdy enjoyed my day with Rhm, tht will be great enough tho :)

Ohhh there's this drifter name Rhenadi frm Indonesia, ohh hes cute tho, imma loving it , hihi. Sir Ming Hui frm Malaysia was the last drifter frm Mlysia tht got kicked out frm the top 8, his drifts was awesome but his been unlucky since his car tyre got some problem but overall his the best frm Mlysia even Tngku Djan, Mlysia got kicked out by him. Its quite a big surprise has been made ystrdy...... Thnkyou Tawiel for the ticket :)

Argghh all my body are on fire right now. Everythng is very painful, can't stand it man. Waiting for someone to come and give me a niceeeee massage on my back, tht will be great ! Had rugby game on last Thursday and Saturday, thts why Im in this situation right now. Game between Hong Kong was a really a tough game. They're really superb fast, likee really really fast. Okay enough with the rugby thingy, malas nak cakap pasal game yg kalah sbnr nya. HA-HA-HA.

This is tooooooo longgggggg, bfre it way too long, im done here. Goodbye :)

anak mak ?

Today was my last day of working at Quiksilver. It such a relieve :) I cant wait for every single mnt to end just now. My mind was flying arnd thinking abt better things to do after work. But I have to face the fact tht i am not gonna earn extra money anymore, tht is the saddest part when I can't buy things tht I want. All will be my oppurtunity cost, damn.

Anyway, there was a family tht I served just now. Auww, this cpl have a twin son. Shhoooo cute and lovely. The twin faces were like the cartoon Sin Chan. hihi. But one of the twin, the eyes was so like stoner. Macam baru lepas stone. Very sepet one but the other one was so normal. Hahaha just imagine 10 month babies stone-ing. Then the daddy was like busy looking fr a pair of t-shirt and pants for the bby.

Oh gosh, there's something so called the main purpose tht im blogging tonite, hihi. Anak Mak ? Arr, I still remember tht sentence until now. Its been a long time ago since im in form 3. Guess wht ? I've met tht dude tht work at Extreme Sunway bfre this. I saw him coming inside the shop, but I was like , biar btol mamat ni. So I walked awy and after a while, I walk to the front bck. He suddenly show up and said, ' ehh anak mak laaa' . I was like perghh ingat lagi dia kat aku, so sweeet. Hahaha, his hair still the same, sort of cute. hihihi, ogaaayy forget it.

Just now I learned some dance from Ah Meng. Its was so cool, but I can't really remember how does it go. Gosh, im going to miss all the things tht stuck inside Quiksilver. I just can't believe tht i've been there fr a year, proud to know tht. But its already time for me to focus on my studies or find other work tht suites my time better. So this is the right choice even I knw im going to be out of money sooner or later.

Rahim is at Melaka right now working. For fucking 5 days. Damn, its kind a long term but its the sake fr finding some money for us. I miss him very badly, but I hve to wait no matter wht. I'll be waiting syg, and I loveeee you so much.

I guess I need to sleep now. Need an ample time to sleep for morning class tmoro.

Goodnight readers :)

move out

I dnt knw why this week being a tough time for me. Im sick, stomachache, headache and everything. Oh god, pls help me.

Anyway, done with transfering all the stuff frm Perdana to our new hse TTDI. Our new hse has no lift and we live at the 3rd floor. Just imagine we climb up and down just to put our things at our new hse. Goshhh damn tiring but we managed to settle it down. We managed to organize all the things at the right place but still waiting for the old roomate to move out her things, 'annoying much"

So yeh, going to strt our new day at TTDI by tmoro. Kay, im very sleepy right now. Need to sleep. Goodnight :)

Its you

Nice surprise but u wasn't good enough on surprising me b. U make me so pissed off towards u, at first. Until 2.30 am and i've already fall asleep and yet I got a msg from u says tht :

" Turun guard skrg ! "

Pergh mnyirap aku dgn br tersedar dr tido dgn bgg lagi, die blh bg text mcm tu. Logic la sikit aku nk turun guard tu sorang sorang -.- Heh, thnkgod u came to surprise me or else, hell will calling u.

Nahh, I still love you b

those word might hurt this feeling

Never thought those word will come up from ur mouth. My own bestfriend ? after a long term friendship, and now ure saying these to me. Only god know how I felt when I read those text. Seriously I cant believe it. Thank you very much for those words, will nvr forget

everything that I missed

I jst dnt knw why i am so lazy to update my blog. But i guess i knw whts the answer. It is bcse im busy, duhhhh.

Anyway, i've stop working on last Tuesday. Right the day after, I went back to Perak, my hometown. It was Hari Raya Aidiladha, but theres nothing looks like it once. Everything weren't the same anymore, it doesn't feels like a festive season after all, huh. I came back to Subang on Thursday. Have to be back earliar since I had to register my new semester on Friday. So yeah, the registration ran smoothly but damn its tiring. Eventhough, we reached there early, they were so many ppl came more earliar than us. So , we had to que up and waited for our turn. I had to climb the staircase up and down to settle all my stuff. Right after all then I just got my result. Syukur alhamdulillah, i am satisfied with my result :) After tht, I've to settle down my registration fr the new semester. I've to meet up my mentor, fill in this and tht and so on. Being busy for an hour and done it after all. We were so starving at tht time and dying but we just dnt wnt to eat at tht time since we've waited for our lovely meatball :)

Mai , Fiqa and I went to Ikea to catch up some movies and had our brunch over there. Not to forget to mention, my byfren was there too. He was so insist to meet up, so without any invite, he invite himself, *soo funnay my baby. Anyway, i am so glad tht he was there too cse I miss him alot ;') After had our meatballs, we went to Cineleisure to watched Harry Potter. Oh pity my boy cse he seems so boring watching tht movie. I've alrdy knew tht he won't enjoy the movie tht much cse it was not really the type of movie tht he likes. He once told me bfre, he dnt want to watch Harry Potter . Unfortunately, majority wins ysterday so he can't neither escape frm watch the movie. Sorrrraaaay bby :) Anyway, I enjoy the movie but still not satisfy when i can't really knw whts the ending yet.

I went back home, and went out again. I got scold by my mom. She was so angry cse i din't picked up her call but the thing is, I did text her after the first miss call. Still she was so pissed off with me. Sorry Ma ! Can't denied tht she was so worried abt me.

Today, for the first time, Mama terlajak tido and tak jadi plan ke Mydin. So yeah, we straight awy go to Ikea, AGAIN. Muak dgn meatball since smlm dah makan, so I ate Turkey Sausage jst now nyumaaaay. I bought a side table for my room, teehee. Then I shop 2 shirt, a trousers, and a shade, woohhhooo. I can't believe why I did so -.-

Last but not least, I cant wait to go back to Perdana, to start a new day there with a new room but the same 2 soulmate tht I love :) andd andd and, I really miss my Rahim Mohd :'(

horoscope and tarot

These pain tht ive been through change my whole worlds. I couldn't see whts right and whts not. I dnt knw wht else to believe when I am not sure which one are being honest to me. Playing with the horoscope and the tarot totally made me confuse. I know, believing in those will not bring any changes to my life when my heart is the one which decides. But sometimes those things helps me to think and helps me in making decision. Cse after all, my decision was not based on the horoscope or the tarot but still with my own thinking. Thankgod tht I can still think properly and making a right decision. Its not tht im 100% gurantee tht I won't regret in future but at least I've done my part. I just hope the best for all, I won't ask for more. Praying for the miracle will occur in my life

*cross finger.

youngsters

Yesterday, I went to toilet as usual to waste my time during working. On the way back from the toilet, I saw a fucking pathetic scene tht made me felt like puking and laughing. Hahaha omgod I really just cant believe wht i've saw. Its not to say tht only them the only one who had done it but yeahh at least, not at public and not when I see */#$$$$#***!

Sedangku berjln keluar dr tandas prempuan yg berdekatan dgn kdai levis, forever21 , tough which is at sunway pyramid , ada 2 org hamba allah ni sedang berdiri berdekatan dgn sliding door ni. Yg perempuan tgh bersandar kat dinding, yg laki sdg berdiri tegak menghadap perempuan. Org lalu lalang non-stop tak sedar kan diri jgk. Apa la lagi scene mcm ni tkkan la tkde sape dpt teka. I dnt mind and tknk amek tau pon apa yg krg nk buat sme cse bkn nye org lain tk prnh bwt but at least perlu ke buat di khalayak ramai ? Perggh, mereka makeout non-stop bai klh cite hollywood. Kalau ye pn at least bwt la kat tangga ke apa ke or at least get a room dude. Ni tak , suka buat aku ketawa snyp snyp. Bukan apa, lg lg yg prempuan tu rase nye ada laa dlm umur lingkungan 15-17 tahun, yg laki tu nmpk mcm agk tua la sikit kot. But still ? bikin show dpn toilet pon beragak la sikit. heh, funnnaaaaaaaaaay

i couldn't handle a glass

Fuck all the things tht happened ! Seriously I couldn't handle this alone . I really can't work right now. I need a place ;(

its really shocked me up

I was so shocked when i've got to knw tht my brother was involved in a car accident just now. Right after work, i've checked my phone. Pelik rasa nya bila byk sgt notification. Selalu nya bila blk keje, kosong je kalau ada pon ada la satu dua. Ni sampai 8 *$**///?! So yeah, check punya check. I've read a text from my dad ; said tht : Haris accident, cedera ringan. Awk arrange nak blk. Abh & mama kat hsptl sg. buloh. I was like whaaaaaaaaaat and straight away called my dad. As usual, bila tanya, Abah mcm huissshh trok gilaa bla bla padahal ? -.- But yeah thnkgod my brother was save but according to someone tht we dnt knw, the car was pretty bad.

After talked to my brother just now , I just knew tht hes totally out when the car hit the divider. He did not knw everything tht happened to the car. An ambulance just past over the place tht accident happened and took him straight away to the nearest hospital. He woke up when he reached the hospital. Thankgod, he still alive.

But timbul pertanyaan, adakah keta itu su-ey ? After satu satu jadi kat kete baru tu, hurm

semua di cari tak jumpa

After a long time of not posting , today is the day i choose. Happy 5th mnth annivesary :)

Thnks syg, I had a wonderful day just now even not all things went well but im still grateful when ure with me. Today is kinda a not lucky day for me.

Bila ada duit mcm ni jadi nye, smua yg dicari smua tk jumpa. Rahim dah elok elok nk beli kan tu beli kan ni , apa pn takda. Last last, yg dpt brg nye bkn aku tapi dia. Haha mcm bangang, kehulur kehilir disebabkan nak cari sepasang kasut je ? Tapi end up takda jgk. Sedeh tetap sedeh tapi apakan daya nasib nama nya ni.

Ohmygod, Mama merajuk sebab blk lmbt and maybe sbb cuti tak spend time ngn dia. Damn it, but ive already sent a text msg to her said tht im sorry. Hopefully her heart will cool down , amin.

I love you

everyday was fun

This week was full with plan, from last Monday till today. Until now, I haven't get an enough sleep. Last Sunday nite, Mai and I went to Sentul to settle up a things but end up get nothing. Then Monday nite went to IKEA ate meatball since Adam want to drive us there. Not to miss, so we went to pick up Rahim at Sentul. On Tuesday, we went for swimming at Suria Mas. Haha Rahim was so excited since he wants to take some picture in the water, noooooob :P On Wednesday, we went to KL. Did some window shopping end up with depressed since I din't get wht I want due to short of money. Then we went to Rack, played some foosball game. On Thursday, we slept all day long. On the evening, we all did facial and right after tht we continue our sleep. At night, we get ready for Neutral. Reached there quite early since we can only go inside at 12am , zeze. Lastly, Friday where we all went back to our hommiesss. But bfre tht, we still got time to drop by at AC for awhile to play foosball.

And today, I woke up early in the morning followed my parents to MCD for breakfast. Aiyayaya im very sleepy right now.Later, have to attend Adam's sister wedding and at night there is a bbq at his place. So yeahhh, I think Ive got no time to sleep again -.-

Next Monday is my final exam fot this short semester. I am so dead since I haven't revise anything yet. Damn it, somemore my Islamic's marks was pretty bad for last mid sem. Urrrr, I have to work hard for final. Im so gonna do this way better !

Riding on the bike

Last Thursday, I was one of the 'minah rempit'. Okay its kinda out of the mind, but yes I am. It was pretty fun since Rahim was the rider. Actually, it is all bcse of my broken car. Bcse of tht, I had to borrow my brother's motorcylce to go to ss15 to pay up the bills. Anyway I had fun eventhough it was pretty scary tho. We had to went through all the car and so on, and damnn son, it scared me up :S Rahim was kinda scared to ride me on the bike since it was his first time to bring me along. What ever it is, I am still safe and

I love you, R

the accident car

Maa gad, its Thursday and im at Subang right now. Im waiting for the car to fix up. Rahim is here with me right now. Haha he is so boring doing nothing right now while watching tv. Anyway I love u more and more syg :)

Anyway last Monday was my presentation for Management class. I was so nervous the night bfre. So i wanted to prepare for it but I end up the other night done something else instead of preparing for my presentation. I was quite excited actually. Monday morning end me up with a good presentation from my group. We've got such a good compliment by the outside judges, weeeee. Keep it up the good work guys. I am so proud with my group :)

Rahim came to S. Alam last Tuesday after he failed to come on Monday , as usual. So yeah, I was quite excited to see him on the other day. So, after class, straight awy picked Mai up and went to Batu Tiga KTM to fetch Rahim. His train was so fucking late, so we decided to go on the train which directing to S. Alam station and turn bck to Btu Tiga station. It was a fcking stupid idea but it end up with a 'not bad' idea since we're doing nothing while waiting for Rahim. All the way to S. Alam, and we've bought a packet of fresh jambu batu . Haha, at least theres smthng right ?

Okayy im bored right now and pretty hungraaay. Waiting for Kak Nah to finish up with the cooking. Can't wait to eat ! Haha, hve a blast ppl. I am so sleeeepy and wanted to sleeep , as I wished.

never forget

hello homies

Hello :)

Its been a week ++ i left my blog hanging. Too busy to update but now here I am ,at home updating it :)
So many things had happen, I guess I'll just let it be. Time to time i'll story one by one. For now, I just felt like uploading some pictures, soon ! :D

your call

I am so excited to pick up ur call just now. I felt different when u called me. I am superb happy when i talked to u. Felt like a year i din't hear ur voice. But my happiness was being misunderstood. He thinks tht im busy doing smthng else and thts why i was happy. I am so confuse, how else do u want me to be ? :(

stay

no one can replace

I love u more than I did bfre , ure the one tht I need , no one can replace u but it seems so hard fr us to be tgthr , there's alwys prblm came in . I jst dnt knw why but somewhere somehow there will be a prblm between us .

I'll regret one day , I knw. We love each other for sure but why can't we be tgthr peacefully ? We hurt each other too much , we fought almost everyday. But the fact is we love each other .

Haiiiih

if it is our luck

I've reached the end. I jst can't believe it happened. Wht a big impact towards me. It all started with a small issue and it end up with a big changes to me. He follow his heart too much, he doesn't use his instinct or his mind. He do everything without thinking the good nor the bad bfre he did something. It end up by hurting my feeling. When it's time for him to realise, he'll apologize to me. I've alwys forgive him no matter wht. Cse it's hard for me not to forgive him. This time , for wht he said to me was just too hard fr me to accept but I still forgive him. Is jst tht I need time for me to heal from his word. Eventhough it was a simple sentence, for me , his words are killing me. I'm sorry syg , i need some time . I realised , we actually needed the time for us to learn frm our mistake , I believe we will learn frm it and we'll change for good . The time will come but it seems hard for u to wait . This is ur main prblm ,ur heart can't wait , u pushed urself too much , u dint realised tht u also need time fr urself . I'm sorry fr make u waiting ,ure right, u said I'll regret one day and I admit it tht I'll regret but I think it's the best way for us . And I also knw when it's time for me to open bck my heart , it will be too late fr me and I'll regret at tht time. But I believe if he really loves me and if it meant to be our destiny, no matter how long it takes , we will be back together.

I knw I've hurt ur feelings too. I dnt mean too but sometimes it happen bcse of our fight. U said I nvr try to undrstnd ur feeling but I guess if I really dnt undrstnd u , we will nvr reach this stage now. It's not tht I dnt want to consider ur feelings but sometimes I did something bcse I hve to consider my feelings too . If not , I will alwys remains in our darker hour where deep inside i'm dying with all our prblms .

I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, the time will come.

- your love , 16 Sept 2010

dramas

Im tired with all the dramas. Maybe its the time to let it go, to make it happen

festive season

Well, today is the 6th day of Raya and i've just got the chance to update my blog. Being really busy during raya to keep it update. Anyway, bfre its too late, I just wanna wish everybody Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin. For the mistakes tht i've done, hope it will be forgiven. Don't keep it too long cse its not good, cheers.

Basicly, this year Raya was so warm and unexcited at all. It was not like those day where I had so much fun on hari raya but now everything was not the same anymore. So many changes tht I've realised. Well nowdays everything kept changing, nothing will remains. Ohmaaygod, how I miss those days. Besides, angpaw is getting less and lesser. Its hardly to see ppl giving angpaw. Mostly will said tht we're old enough to get it but the truth is, as long as we're still not married, I think we still deserve it actually. Unfortunately, our culture not like chinese's , zeze.

I went back frm Malacca last Monday. Reached home and theres no car. I was like taheck, I wanna go out to see my loves but theres no car. So as usual , melepet di rmh mcm org bodo -.- My frnd came arnd 5 to take awy my cat and then came another frnd right after the frst one left. Oh at last, i've got the chance to see the loves one at night. Cool, i miss them alot. Haha, mcm takleh tk berjumpa sehari, lol. We went out and chill out for awhile :)

stupid faces

I found something tht at least make me laugh when I am in a sorrow

bleeding

Life is just like a wheel, sometimes its at the top and sometimes its at the bottom. I guess mine is at the bottom right now. Im having a rough time , something is jst not right. Yes, the heart is bleeding right now. I can't really see the red blood, but the pain tht I feel is hurting me so badly. I dont expect things will get worst like now. Both of us are hurting each other, did u realise tht ?

I miss you, the way u treat me , the way u look at me, the way u whisper to me, the way u persuade me, the way u used to tell me everything, just the way who u are. Somewhere somehow, things will nvr change by just saying tht 'I miss u so much'. I was really hope tht we could see each other bfre I go bck to Malacca. My hope was just too good to be destroyed by the dissapoint-ness tht I've been through.

Thnks for everything, I miss you.

unexpected things

Burppp, im just done with eating. Breaking fast with KFC a few minutes ago. Tick tock tick tock, we've reach the 25th day of fasting month. This is so fast. Felt like fasting month had just started few days back. Anyway, we will soon celebrating Hari Raya . weeeeeee can't wait !

Well, I jst shopped some clothes just now. Again and again, I bought smthng tht really unexpected which is out of my list. Damn it, I just can't resist frm buying all the stuff tht i saw jst now. Cotton On jst make me out of my mind ! I was supposely buy 2 tops and 1 heels but I end up with 2 top, 1 dress, 1 jeans and 1 wedges, zezeze. Actually, I've already set my mind to not buy any jeans anymore but urghhhh, I dnt knw why I bought it jst now. haiyayaya

six day

After 6 days of not fasting, today I've starting to puasa again ! Yeahhhhh, I din't miss so many days this time. Not like last year, thankgod :)

broken phone

I felt so tired at work yesterday. I stand up all day long and sometimes I felt asleep while i am standing up. I almost fall down. Tht is so stupid ! How can it not happen since I've got no enough time for sleep, then I've got class in the morning, then right after tht, I hve to go for work. Of crse I'll be a dead meat -.- I went bck last night, I called Rahim and straight awy felt asleep right after I hung up the phone with him. I din't wash my face and so on, euwwww. It shows tht I am really tired tho -.-

I am so depressed here. My phone is broken ! Urghh, out of sudden, early of Thursday morning, I check my phone was alrdy stuck. It was pending, so I off my phone. When I switch it on, some of my key pad was not functioning. At first, I dnt really mind since my phone still can be use but when it comes to texting time, it really try my patient. Grr, its fcking annoying since I can texting without spacing. Ppl thinked tht I was so dumb to text without spacing -.- I think its time to change my phone, teeeheeeee . But the prblm now is, I've got no money u mofo ! Sob sob, I think I should wait. I jst got a new lappy from my parents, so I dnt want to persuade them with the phone this time. So, I shall wait till the right time.

I miss my baby :( I love u syg, always !

a week becoming a happy person

Damn it, i've just got the time to update my blog this week. How i miss it man. Basicly, 1 week bck was a happy week for me. I jst dnt knw why, but the happy moment was there. Anyway, I met my puppy eyes last Monday after a long day of not seing him since our anni. At last, we just got the chance to meet each other. I miss him, like alot , seriously. So yeah, we hang out together with my bstfrn at Sunway till the countdown of our National Day. Actually it was not really a countdown, it just like a plain gathering. Before the countdown, we went to watched movie, 'Grown ups'. It was sort of comedy movie but at the same time, there's slightly of some love chapter they showed which is so sweet :) After the movie finished, we went to AC. Its been quite a while I din't got there with friends. So yeah, it could be call a fun night. Anyway, i've got a surprise from Rahim. He bought me a bagpack tht I wanted for a long time on tht day. He bought for me without me realising it. Tht is so sweet syg, thankyou so much. U knw right, how really mean u to me bby.

The next day which is on Tuesday, I went back to Subang and went out with my family. The day it self, I was so tired cse I couldn't get enough sleep. I was supposely do some shop for Hari Raya but it end up buying nothing. Theres nothing I can find at Empire or Subang Parade. Nothing at all ! The stuff tht I wanna buy was jst not somewhere arnd there. Lastly, my dad jst bought me a new boot for rugby and I just bought some make up stuff. What a plain shopping. I was suppose to get a Raya shoes but I've got a Raya boot -.-

On Wednesday, as usual I hve to attend my class. In Islamic class, we jst got inform tht our quiz on next Monday has to be done erliar which is yesterday, Friday. I was so shock since I din't revise the topic at all. Errr, at tht time, I only left 2 days to make some revision. So, I did a fast revision and end up, yesterday quiz was okay, thankgod :)

2 days ago, I met Rahim again. I've took him to MidV and Pavillion since he really wanted to show me shoes tht he wanted to buy. So yeahh, he kinda confuse on which one he wanna buy. He still haven't decide to buy which one. Pity u syg, I've alrdy told u to buy which one but u still want to buy the expensive one. So up to u k bby, heee. No matter wht, I still love u :)

i am right again

I am so upset :( heh, trying to make some jokes

my heart beat

Bby, its the 3rd month and I am still counting. I know tht we're having a rough time lately, but the thought to get back to normal was just there. Fighting with u was just not worth it at all, cse at the end, it will be the same ending story. I almost remember all those words tht will be the end of the fighting, heh. Thnks for being there for me, during the hard and the good times. I'll remember all those time which is so precious for me. As my heart beating, i'll nvr stop loving u.

here and there

God damn, today is the 9th day of fasting month and the 3rd day of class. So many obstacle tht I've been through out the days. Nahh, im still standing ! Basicly, my first day of class at MSU was pretty upset. The first class (marketing) early in the morning has been cancelled without any notice. I was end up by got info tht the subject was not been offer for this short sem. I was mad bcse why they don't even inform us abt tht. Blah blah, nthng much tht I can do beside jst go with the flow.

Islamic class was fun ! My lecturer made me excited to go to her class. The way she catched the crowd was totally awesome. Hope it will be fun until the end of the semester :)

Till then, i'll update more when i've got the time . Goodbye :)

matter of fact

Its wrong to be unspoken, but it worst to be spoken. Sometimes it sad to see things getting worst, wanted to fix it but it turns the other way arnd, end up we jst get nothing. One head acting tht way, one other head acting own way, then pop up the difficulties. Yes everyone wants to be on their own ways, but the fact, its hard to live in one way.

Listen, understand, cooperate. Done.

groceries

If yesterday I slept until like theres no other day, today I am awake like nobody business. Today is the 5th day of ramadhan, well im still counting. Just now after sahur, I can't sleep. So, I just browse arnd through my I-touch. Usually theres nothing much if I online early in the morning but today, i've chit-chatted with someone who long lost dissapear frm my life. So many stories, stupid and funny things we've talked abt. Without me realising it, its already sunrise. I've took my shower and get ready for MYDIN. Oh god, its been quite a long time I din't go there since im busy and yet its time for me to repay! So I've took alot of things for myself. Reached the counter, my dad was so surprised with the total amount and as usual, memekak ! hahaha very funny, its actually kinda relief when I get to buy so many things tht I need. Dah lama tak shopping kat mydin actually, mcm bodo!

Now, I've got nthng better to do. Rahim stays silent frm last nite. I dnt knw where hve he been, whether he lost in the city or something. Still waiting for my phone to ringing -.- Im going back to S. alm tonite. Tomorrow will be the first day sahur ovr there and will be the first day of my class.

Pretty excited :)

pictures

Its been a long time I din't post any picture. Once in a while, present :

fasting month

Happy fasting month to all muslims . As the time goes by, I was so surprised tht we hve already reached to this month. It was really fast. Tup tap tup tap, bulan lapan dah. So many things happened and same as so many things changed without we realising it. So far, I hope the good things will stay and the bad will go away. First day of puasa was okay but i've got my headahce which is kinda stress me up. From the aspect of food and drink, I still can manage myself from those. Im just glad that I went for Solat Tarawikh just now. At least i've got the time for the first day of puasa :)

Right now, Im really desperate to find a new job as my old job kinda pissed me off. After my old manager, Pam had resigned, everything is changing and its all ruined up. I really hate it, with the useless ass mngr ! I found him very racist and very pathetic. He thinks tht he really good enough and can do everythings right without accept any better suggestion from others. You can jst go to hell ! Anyway, I think I better find a new job tht suits my time. Hopefully I'll find one soon !

Class is going to start next week. I better be prepare for the assignment. I just can't imagine how would it be. Pretty excited and scared. I scared tht I can't suit myself in. I better do it well. This is only my chance to be a better person , *cross finger.

high fever

I've got so many things to let it out here after quite a long time of not blogging. Basicly, I had high fever last friday. Only god knws how I suffered. I slept for almost the whole day and when I woke up, Im shivering , my body was superb hot like boiling egg and I felt cold like im in north pole. My body was so weak and the only thing tht I can do was lying on the bed. Luckily, i've got Rahim with me. He took a good care of me. The responsibility was there. He did everything for me. Thnk u syg, I really appreciated it. Meantime, I asked Fiqa for a help. She did come to my place and brought me to the clinic. Thnks bstfrn, u were alwys there when im not well ;') Once I reached the clinic, I straight awy see the doctor. My first impression when I saw the doctor, I was like 'kau ni doctor ke taxi driver do ?' Oh god, he doesn't dress up like a doctor and the way he treated me as a patient was way different like he doesn't want it too. Anyway, i've got an injection caused of my high fever. At first I was kinda excited for the injection actually but after the injection I was like high-ing for awhile and its quite pain bcse the doc simply injected me like non- professional at all. Grr sumpah try !

Today, I was supposed to collect my salary. So yeah, I did. Before tht, I drove alone all the way to LCCT to fetch my mom. She just got back frm Kelantan. It took me arnd 30 mnts to reach there but it took me for almost an hour to come back to Subang. Cse u know why ? When the speed metre when up to 80km/h , my mom will start nagging at me. She complaint all the way if I started to speed up . Its really annoyed me. Its not tht Im not a good driver but the fact is I'll drive with full secure. Nothing can change her thought -.-

After tht, I went to Sunway to collect my salary. I was happy since I knew tht im going to hve my money soon. Unfortunately, it turned me downs when I saw the cheque. The amounts was totally different from wht i've thought. So, I guess theres something wrong with the calculation and yet I was right. I hve to wait again until they settle it back. Hancur hatiku nak berduit, sob.

Anyway, today is 8/8/2010 . So I am here to wish my beloved friend , Liyana Abdul Haizam a Happy 18th Birthday ! Hope a little surprise last night could make u happy at least a little ? May god bless u baby.

Violent post

For some violent post tht have been posted by my friend, Mai S was so not true ! Haha, tht pic of me sleeping was jst a situation tht hve been plan by Mai . For ur information, if I am really sleeping, it will not take a long period of me sleeping. It might be only for a 2-3 minutes . Haha so pls dnt trust tht image ! Thank you :)

First class of absent

Happy 2nd annivesary baby :)

Today is the scnd day of bridging class. We all went to the morning class jst now and guess wht ? Now we're at home skipping the afternoon class -.- The 2 bitches are busy sleeping while i am onlining right now. Basicly, u guys will think like ' Pergh, pebende br 1st week dh ponteng class and so on...' Chill , jst sit down and relax dude. It was only a bridging class, some of the class may give us some good info or advise but some of it was like only a sleeping class perhaps. So i guess, we wont loose tht much for not going to the class, teeheeeeee :) I jst can't wait for the real class which is on 16 of August. Im eagerly want to start learning !

Anyway, yesterday was my 2nd month anni. Pfft , baru 2 bulan, kecoh much laa! Haha, but yeah its hard for me to reach to this stage according to my past. But now, I am still standing with him to build the castle together *hopefully. Till now, im happy with him even we alwys got into fight. It sucks when we're in problem , but so far we managed to settle it down. Thnks for give in syg, or if not, we will not be together till now, I guess. Thnks for yesterday, even it was only a simple date, i still feel the bond as long as u're with me. No matter wht, i will always try to not stop loving u. Remember that ! :)

Orientation weeks

After 4 days of orientation , tmoro will be the last day :) Basicly, the first day was pretty warm. Starting to introduce one by one. Not tht fun , some of them were pretty shy , some was not talkative enough , some was not smilling. Actually , so many kind of people to describe -.- let's jst proceed ite . We had to remember the song lyrics and so on . Haha frst time hearing the unis song was so funny bcse of the lyrics and the melodies . Pfft , teringat lagu skola dulu. How I miss my school :( then at this one time , Mai got scold by 1 facilitator bcse she was laughing while singing the song . Very funny !

Everyday was a tired day for us. Its okay, it will come to the end. Gonna miss it perhaps, even I dnt really like it at first but I've already suit myself in . It was not tht bad actually, get to knw each other and so on. Nvm, the more happier moment will come soon. For now, im still worried abt the cash. Go so many things to settle down with some cash while im not having tht much of money. I hve to work jst to get some cash for myself. Sooner or later, I'll get tired of it. But somewhere somehow, how will I get the cash without working ? Oh god, pls help me ;/

Register day

Register day ? I woke up early in the morning , settle down some matters. Then went to MSU . Erm pretty crowded and hve to wait for my number to be call. After waited fr almost 25 students, here we go my turn ! Gave out my requiring documents and settle down all the payments and had to go through some procedure until the last part. Alhamdullilah , I've done all my part. It was kinda fun to see my family, fiqa's family and mai's family gathered arnd. Felt like one big family like so called reunion ! Haha happy moments. After tht , we all went to our rented house with all our family. Well , the house was so so laa . But our room was okay, luckily we 3 can fit in tht room . After all , seing my mom looking at the place , she felt like so suffocated with the hse. But I Guess i can survive with my 2 lovely monkeys ;)

well , jst wait for the orientation tmoro !

i am excited

Well, I just got back from Perak in the afternoon. I was so tired and within 30 minutes I was felt asleep . Last nite, when I was on the phone with my byfren in the dark at my hometown, something weird happened. I guess its only my feelings but it totally makes me shut my mouth for a second. Im kind in a silence cse I can't really concentrate when I was talked to him. There's no electric at tht time, at first without any afraid, I talked to him downstairs alone while my brother was asleep beside me. Within 20 minutes of talking, suddenly I heard a sound of plastic plate felt down at the kitchen. I dnt wanna say anything, so I jst kept quiet and continue talking, but within 1 minute, I heard a weird sound came frm the other side of mine. After I really can't stand it, I quickly asked him to talk to me until I reach upstairs and hung up. I went inside the room to get ready for sleep. After awhile, the electric was back but in a few second, it went black out again. Tafack man ? After a few minutes, it came back -.- I quickly put on my headset into my ears, closed my eyes and stop thinking. Seriously I had a worst nightmare after tht. I dreamt alot of bad things happened. I was shocked and when I woke up, the clock shows tht it was at 3 am in the morning which means, its only less than 2 hours of me sleeping. I quickly texted Rahim. When I woke up this morning, I jst noticed tht the msg was not delivered -.- What a night.....

Anyway, now I am so excited for tmorow. Im going to start a new life but still with my 2 old bstfrn :) So, im going to register tmorow morning but for wht I heard now, they said the orientation going to be on the second day, so yeahh. Im going to register and after tht im gonna buy my stuff for college and for the house. Weeeee, cant wait to do the shopping :)

Last but not least, I really can't wait to see him tmoro. I miss him so badly :( Its almost 4 days, I din't see him. Pheewwwwwww, hopefully I can see him since im afraid im going to be busy tmoro but I hope so tht time will be on my side.
I love you baby with all my heart !

Im done , Goodnight :)

can i get any better from this ?

From one by one, it nvr stops me frm flowing the cash to the things tht i've accidently did. Its really suck big time. Never stop thinking frm where should I get more cash. I hate it man, this month i've already save the money for something precious for my future, and guess wht ? Once again it will just burn like tht. Im fcking stress abt these, haih

Basically, i've admitted tht it was my fault to hit the car but it was not on purpose, it was accidently did by me. I dnt knw why my fcking car's sensor din't give me an alarm to alert abt the other car. When I reversed my car slowly, suddenly I heard a 'baaaaam' on my right side. Here u go, scratch here and there but its not tht bad. Its just tht the car colour went off a lil bit. For being responsible, I've waited there to see the owners of the car. As usual, the girl came out with some kind of face tht I dnt like. Macam bajet gilaa la minah pakai tudung tu kan , urghh. When I brought her to the workshop, one of the workers said tht it can get cheaper by touch-up here and there but tht fcking arrogant girls was fcking pissed me off. She wanted the whole bumper to be spray back. Why are u being so selfish dude ? I am only a student, where the heck am I going to get money to pay up?

After I settled down the car, I went to KL with Fiqa and Adam to see Rahim. Yes as usual, complicated misunderstanding again. So, ada laa adegan tarik muka and so on -.- But why can't u just talk to me nicely ? Do u knw how it feels ? SUCKS! I was jst not in the mood at first, so many things to think :( Anyhow, I dnt want it to get any longer, so I jst cut it off and settle it down even I was actually not okay. Sorrayyy. Anyway, I felt better when Fiqa, Adam and Rahim were arnd. At least theres someone to make me laugh. It could be better if my Princess Diane was there too but unfortunately, shes working just now -.-

The fact is now, I am really sad ;'(

pain pls go away

Yesterday, I went out again with my two bestfrn and Fiqa's byfren, so called 'Adam Lambert' eeee. Actually, I was not feeling well but I just dnt want to miss a single free time with both of them. I forced myself really hard to go out yesterday even only God knws the pain tht I feel inside. I dnt want u guys thinks tht I've got no times for both of u. I jst want u guys to knw tht im trying my best to spend my time with u girls.

Unfortunately, I miss the part they went for swimming :( Im terribly exhausted with the pain. Urrrrrgh, till when I hve to suffer this ? I went to see doctor last night, Fiqa being like Mommy tho. The way she acted jst made me laugh,haha. Anyway, the medicines they gave were totally sucks :S Its all big and not attractive at all, zeze. For the first time I saw an 'antibiotic' tablet was not colourful, grrr.

Anyway, Mai alrdy took her braces steel off her teeth. At last huh? Congrats baby :)

can u see the pain inside ?

It is a lot to update. My last weekend was jst not cool enough. Been stressful with all the crap while im not in good condition. It was a bad time actually. Things happened at the wrong time. When I was not well enough to confront it. Being sick for a couple of days, its really sucks. Headache all time till I felt like knock my head to the wall until I can't feel the pain anymore. Trust me, its very painful and I dnt knw where the heck it cames from. Everytime I ate the panadol, it will gone but after awhile, it came back and it was totally freak me until I felt like jumping out of my corridor at Suria Mas which is 8 floors up. Luckily I was asleep, pheeew.

Hey boyfren, hope tht after this no more making me think twice. It sucks, seriously. I've been through it all this while but sometimes I just need wht I've needed. At first, I thought it was the end but luckily it was not. U make me smile over again. But it doesn't mean u've done, u got so many things to catch up again. I jst can't resist u at times.

Dear bestfrn, I knew last Sunday night was totally a disaster. I was not in the mood while having this pain in my brain. It was so pain until everything tht came up tht night makes me feel so pissed off. Actually if im not having this fucking headache, at least im not being ones like tht. Its really a pressure tht I felt. Sorry for being a last minute person, but u hve to understand, my parents were not like urs. They nvr give answer straight awy and theres alwys a reason for wht im doing and thts why , I was always came out with a reason. Its not tht im being selfish sometime, but it jst the fact tht sometimes I hve to win their hearts fr some good reason, so I can't simply say 'NO' to their words. In a way, I have to say 'NO' to u guys. Yes, maybe bcse of tht, u guys were tired to make plans with me. Anyhow, I hve to deal with it la kan. Anyways, I had fun with both of u eventhough at first, its being a dull night. At least we could shared the football spirit together even the crowd was so boring at I-City ! I've bet the first place we went will be more cool. Unfortunately, it was jst not our luck I guess. Anyhow, Im being sorry for my bad.

I love u all with all my heart.

pretty stuff

Im sorry for tht. We dnt mean to go watched it without u bby. Im just being understanding abt ur prblm, so I dnt want to disturb ur time. Sorrryyyy frm the bottom of my heart.

So yesterday I went out at night. I went to AC again and again. Went there with Raz and his frnd and with Fiqa love. Something came up when we're supposely go back. It all started with some stupid things. Pfft, I guess I dnt need to explain it here.

Anyway, yesterday I went out with my 2 best colleagues, Pamela and Lee Ting. We had lunch together at Jogoya Restaurant, Starhill. The food was awesome but it was such a waste when I din't eat alot. My stomach can't take anymore when it reach the point, haiyo. After we finished our lunch, we went to BB and did some shopping. Pam got her things while I din't buy anything since I shopped quite alot tht day, and bcse of LT, we had to go back to Pavillion to check up oh her wallet. Hishh, tht amoi bikin trouble u knw, at first gedik tkmau pegi, end up jalan patah balik pegi Pavi -.- So yeah, she got her wallet, 'BURBERRY' somemore -.-

I almost forgotten to mention, Rahim was there too actually. He came at the last minute since I've asked him at the last minute too, haha my bad. He came arnd 6pm like tht. Auww thnks being there syg, I knw it troubles u alot but seing the effort tht cames frm u, it jst make me smile :) So after I went off frm Pam and LT, I forced Rahim to get some food. So we had dinner fr awhile at BB. About almost an hour later, I went to Sentul to send him back. Since there's still a time, we've decided to go to Titiwangsa. Basically, we've just spent our wasted time over there. At least right ? Rather than waste our time sitting in the car at his place, doing nothing. At Titiwangsa, at least we can see the light, the scenery, the water, ppl jogging and last but not least, couples doing project
Hahaha seriously macam bangang.

I think its more than enough ite ? Goodbye :)

shes back!

Fiqa went back to KL already. I really miss her eventhough its only been 3 days she went for holiday. She bought me this t-shirt ' I LOVE PANGKOR' , where i love it so much. Thanks bby, really appreciate it. See u tomorrow on breakfast ! I love you !

everybody is missing

Back to school, I attended the Fourian Fare yesterday where it was held at my school. It was pretty crowded with people but it was not tht bad. So many game and stall over there. I jst hate it, cse when our time, theres no such event. After we left the school then they want to make one, wtfck is tht ? Okay jst forget it, past is past. But I really miss school and really miss the time where every moment I cheerish it with my cool friends ;')

Anyway, I went there with my dad then I've met Fatin and Anies. They just got bck frm UITM, Malacca the day bfre. Heard so many story abt their orientation days. It jst make me can't wait for my day to come, hihi. After an hour like tht, we went to Sunway. Teyn wanna buy some stuff for her college.

At night, I went out with Yana and Mai. Yana also jst got back frm UITM, Jengka. We went to watched football at AC. Played foosball as usual :) I've also met the guys and the rest.

Damn, I miss everyone. Everybody is starting to get busy with their college lifes. After this no more lepak lepak already, unless they come back on weekend. Its okay, hve fun buddies. Hope this friendship will nvr break :)

I will be there no matter what

Sometimes, he is just so unpredictable. The way he shows the love was so different. At first, its hard for me to deal with it. As the time goes by, i am learning one by one . At times, the way u treated me jst killing me inside, but i am trying so hard to accept it. Hopefully it is not way too far cse I dnt want it to cause my heart bleeding inside.

Talking to u yesterday and jst now jst made me touched tho. U've been so worried abt me but when u were infront of me, u acted like so cool. And now I knw, u were actually pretending to be okay while u were not. I am sorry to burden u with all these crap. I dnt wanna tell u sooner or later cse i scared i will be late for it. Unfortunately, it caused u to think alot right now. I am really sorry for tht, cse I knw, right now, u were dealing with so many problem. Bby, pls be strong and be patient. I knw how u will become when the situation is out of control. So, i dnt want u to be out of control, so take it easy and slowly. Cse u know why ? I will alwys be there for u, I LOVE YOU

spirit

I jst dnt knw why , bt I was like been persuade by the shopping spirit ghost jst now . I've spent quite alot , zeze . This is really bad ! I've supposely save my money fr college bt I spend it on my stuff instead -.- anyway, I feel relief when I spent my money on those stuff tht I bought jst now cse fr me it's quite worth it tho. It took me fr only 2 hours to buy these and tht ;) yes as usual, he late again , haih I dnt knw wht else to say cse i bet it won't change anythng, haih.

I talked like alot today. From the morning till the evening, crap much. Fiqa supposely went to Thailand today, but it was cancel due to some prblm. I had breakfast with her and Adam this morning then we went to AC. For the first time, like Fiqa said ' The breakfast is on me !' hahaha funny u lil bitch ! But so sweet of u baby :)

perfect job

Tomorrow will be a different day for me. No more going to Sunway as usual , no more wearing a black/white shirt, no more lepaking at the lorong, no more greeting, no more 24/7 smiling, no more folding the t-shirt and etc, no more standing by all night long. The most simple word to describe is no more 'TIRED-NESS' !

Pheew, today was my last day of working at Quiksilver. Damn it, im so gonna miss the crowd. No more laughing with the rest, every single day will be just a different day to me. I am not saying tht im regret cse I think this is the best time for me to look for some spaces doing something else. It just for 2 weeks man , then i'll be away fr further my studies. So, for this fucking 2 weeks, I will make my life stable by spending time with my love ones. Hope this 2 week will be enough for me but I gurantee it won't be enough, actually -.-

6 month being with them was the best experience ever. I've learn so many things and I got to know all different kind of people's behaviour . Im glad to know the rest of the crew. When im first working there, it all started with a warm smile but now, it all ends with a warm hug. That is so sweet of them. Im really gonna miss them, especially Raz ;') and my chit-chatting partner, Pamela Anderson ;)

Goodbye Quiksilver ;')

its the same

Haha , ckp org dia pn sama . See i've told u, everyone is just the same kn kn, there is no different. Heh, so keep blaming each other ;) Cse after all, u will be saying the same fcking sentence. Which is soo right for u , heh -.-

BIG GAME

Tonight is the night where the game begins !

PORTUGAL VS. SPAIN

Both are my favourite team, how am i suppose to react ?

finally

Finally, tommorow is going to be my last day at Quiksilver. Im gonna miss it so much but at the same time, i am so relief tht i'll be free at the end. I'll get more time to hang out with my friends and family tho my love ones. Going to start my study soon, really can't wait for it. The rest had already left for their own good. Busy with their new routine in their college lifes. Only left 3 of us right now, and still counting the time. Gonna cheerish every second of our life bfre the college get started. Im goin to get my new routine soon, so yeahh hve fun babyyyyyy.

Hello new world ! ;)

forever it says

thank you

Why all human beings in this world can't think like ones ? hurm, No one can think better like u, yes maybe we can't think properly but wht make u said u really think like an adult ? Actually the fact is everyone was nvr think bfre they've done something. For god sake, jst look back and think cse everyone did the same thing too.

Heart feelings ? I realised tht it was one of the main reason why all this shitt happened. Yes, everyone felt the same thing and thts why they keep doing the same thing to each other. Kept hurting each other feelings. After all, its all equal but there is still no solution. Mmg susah nak jaga hati msg msg, trust me, it was the hardest part of all but there's no harm trying to work on it.

Why kena fikir yg ktorg tak pernah nk fhm the situation , sedang kan bnde yg seakan sama ni pernah jadi dulu ? And we've been through it together, we fought bcse smthng similar to this where every situation was the same but now, its only a different person. Maybe some of it, only god knws how u feel, I respect tht. How i wished to feel the same way as urs. I knw its hard to go through it but u're the one who choose to be in tht way , so of crse u will work hard fr it to work things out and why now u trying to ran awy frm the track ? Is it bcse u dnt want it anymore or u tired of it ? Why must u get tired when u want something to be perfect? Yes, as a friend, we want to support u but at the same time we jst want to help u to correct u wht was wrong but yeah maybe the way we help was totally wrong for u. Felt sorry for tht, but when u've done something wrong which is u nvr knew it will happen, u knw right ? This kind of situation will happen. Where misunderstanding happen, ppl talking abt u, and many more. We've tried to understand ur feelings but when we try to correct the things where its wrong, things getting wrongly and at the end it became worst.



Sometimes, I felt regret to get into this matter but I guess i'll feel more regret if i only watch this thing happen infront of my eyes when i know it was wrong. Bcse friends will nvr want to see a scratch on their friend's faces. As a frnd, we jst want to help but we dnt knw it will becoming like this, sorry.

A 6 years friendship we build jst collapse like tht. Its okay, jst go to the place tht u feel free and good for u, as long as u can be happy with ur new life. If thts will make u happy, then jst go ahead, run for it, grab it, forget abt all the shitts here. May ur life will be in peace.



Thnks for the friendship tht we had on the past and yes, we still having it now but it jst not the same anymore. Done.

fight is love

I had rugby training just now . After tht, I went to see my byfren , had a talk , we all busy talking bout vacation -.- They were so excited especially Fiqa. Happy to see them like tht cse it jst make me smile ;) When we're having our dinner, we're busy talking abt the past. It was so funny and nvr thought those thing could happen on our past. Hahaha funny lil things.

Now, not everything is fun. It was all changed without realising it becoming worst. How sad am I to see those things happen infront of me right now.

Kenapa certain kwn suka tgk kwn sendiri gaduh? Dah tau gaduh lg mau bwt hal jd bsr. Sebab dieorg tak kesah or maybe dieorg kesah tp taktau pn apa itu erti 'kawan' sbnrnya. Dah tau kwn tu tknk jumpe kwn tu tapi sengaja jgk bwk face to face . And without telling her whos coming while the other side dnt knw anything. End up slh fhm berlaku, sorang fkir bnde jd sbb disengajakan and srg lg blur tktau paper and terfikir kenapa aku kat sini sbb aku tau die tknk tgk muka aku. Apa sbnr nye motif di situ ? Kenapa kwn yg srg ni bwt mcm tu ? Saje nk porak peranda kan lg or ada niat baik sbnrnya ? Im keep wondering cse this thing had make it worst.

blowing out a happiness

Im going out later with my friends :) auww its been awhile we din't spend time together and yeah at last now . Unfortunately, not all of them going to be there, how sad is tht when there is someone missing just to make a favor for a friend. There's nthng much we can do when we can't change someones decision when it says 'final'.

Wow, its hard actually.

gain it back

Anythng can happen when the trust was get betrayed ! They loose family,friends, loose in faith and almost everything. Sometimes things happen without we knowing it but it happens cse we're created it once. It also must be the fate but it goes well cse we work for it. It meant tht if we nvr look for it , the fate might be faded away and will not happen. Once it happen, no looking back but always looking forward.

Its hard to gain the trust bck but no matter wht, there is always the word 'TRY'. When u try , make it worth. Prove it tht u are really trying. Don't jst try but theres no proof, heh. No matter wht, theres always one day tht u will gain the words 'FORGIVENESS' .