can u see the pain inside ?

It is a lot to update. My last weekend was jst not cool enough. Been stressful with all the crap while im not in good condition. It was a bad time actually. Things happened at the wrong time. When I was not well enough to confront it. Being sick for a couple of days, its really sucks. Headache all time till I felt like knock my head to the wall until I can't feel the pain anymore. Trust me, its very painful and I dnt knw where the heck it cames from. Everytime I ate the panadol, it will gone but after awhile, it came back and it was totally freak me until I felt like jumping out of my corridor at Suria Mas which is 8 floors up. Luckily I was asleep, pheeew.

Hey boyfren, hope tht after this no more making me think twice. It sucks, seriously. I've been through it all this while but sometimes I just need wht I've needed. At first, I thought it was the end but luckily it was not. U make me smile over again. But it doesn't mean u've done, u got so many things to catch up again. I jst can't resist u at times.

Dear bestfrn, I knew last Sunday night was totally a disaster. I was not in the mood while having this pain in my brain. It was so pain until everything tht came up tht night makes me feel so pissed off. Actually if im not having this fucking headache, at least im not being ones like tht. Its really a pressure tht I felt. Sorry for being a last minute person, but u hve to understand, my parents were not like urs. They nvr give answer straight awy and theres alwys a reason for wht im doing and thts why , I was always came out with a reason. Its not tht im being selfish sometime, but it jst the fact tht sometimes I hve to win their hearts fr some good reason, so I can't simply say 'NO' to their words. In a way, I have to say 'NO' to u guys. Yes, maybe bcse of tht, u guys were tired to make plans with me. Anyhow, I hve to deal with it la kan. Anyways, I had fun with both of u eventhough at first, its being a dull night. At least we could shared the football spirit together even the crowd was so boring at I-City ! I've bet the first place we went will be more cool. Unfortunately, it was jst not our luck I guess. Anyhow, Im being sorry for my bad.

I love u all with all my heart.