if it is our luck

I've reached the end. I jst can't believe it happened. Wht a big impact towards me. It all started with a small issue and it end up with a big changes to me. He follow his heart too much, he doesn't use his instinct or his mind. He do everything without thinking the good nor the bad bfre he did something. It end up by hurting my feeling. When it's time for him to realise, he'll apologize to me. I've alwys forgive him no matter wht. Cse it's hard for me not to forgive him. This time , for wht he said to me was just too hard fr me to accept but I still forgive him. Is jst tht I need time for me to heal from his word. Eventhough it was a simple sentence, for me , his words are killing me. I'm sorry syg , i need some time . I realised , we actually needed the time for us to learn frm our mistake , I believe we will learn frm it and we'll change for good . The time will come but it seems hard for u to wait . This is ur main prblm ,ur heart can't wait , u pushed urself too much , u dint realised tht u also need time fr urself . I'm sorry fr make u waiting ,ure right, u said I'll regret one day and I admit it tht I'll regret but I think it's the best way for us . And I also knw when it's time for me to open bck my heart , it will be too late fr me and I'll regret at tht time. But I believe if he really loves me and if it meant to be our destiny, no matter how long it takes , we will be back together.

I knw I've hurt ur feelings too. I dnt mean too but sometimes it happen bcse of our fight. U said I nvr try to undrstnd ur feeling but I guess if I really dnt undrstnd u , we will nvr reach this stage now. It's not tht I dnt want to consider ur feelings but sometimes I did something bcse I hve to consider my feelings too . If not , I will alwys remains in our darker hour where deep inside i'm dying with all our prblms .

I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, the time will come.

- your love , 16 Sept 2010