everything that I missed

I jst dnt knw why i am so lazy to update my blog. But i guess i knw whts the answer. It is bcse im busy, duhhhh.

Anyway, i've stop working on last Tuesday. Right the day after, I went back to Perak, my hometown. It was Hari Raya Aidiladha, but theres nothing looks like it once. Everything weren't the same anymore, it doesn't feels like a festive season after all, huh. I came back to Subang on Thursday. Have to be back earliar since I had to register my new semester on Friday. So yeah, the registration ran smoothly but damn its tiring. Eventhough, we reached there early, they were so many ppl came more earliar than us. So , we had to que up and waited for our turn. I had to climb the staircase up and down to settle all my stuff. Right after all then I just got my result. Syukur alhamdulillah, i am satisfied with my result :) After tht, I've to settle down my registration fr the new semester. I've to meet up my mentor, fill in this and tht and so on. Being busy for an hour and done it after all. We were so starving at tht time and dying but we just dnt wnt to eat at tht time since we've waited for our lovely meatball :)

Mai , Fiqa and I went to Ikea to catch up some movies and had our brunch over there. Not to forget to mention, my byfren was there too. He was so insist to meet up, so without any invite, he invite himself, *soo funnay my baby. Anyway, i am so glad tht he was there too cse I miss him alot ;') After had our meatballs, we went to Cineleisure to watched Harry Potter. Oh pity my boy cse he seems so boring watching tht movie. I've alrdy knew tht he won't enjoy the movie tht much cse it was not really the type of movie tht he likes. He once told me bfre, he dnt want to watch Harry Potter . Unfortunately, majority wins ysterday so he can't neither escape frm watch the movie. Sorrrraaaay bby :) Anyway, I enjoy the movie but still not satisfy when i can't really knw whts the ending yet.

I went back home, and went out again. I got scold by my mom. She was so angry cse i din't picked up her call but the thing is, I did text her after the first miss call. Still she was so pissed off with me. Sorry Ma ! Can't denied tht she was so worried abt me.

Today, for the first time, Mama terlajak tido and tak jadi plan ke Mydin. So yeah, we straight awy go to Ikea, AGAIN. Muak dgn meatball since smlm dah makan, so I ate Turkey Sausage jst now nyumaaaay. I bought a side table for my room, teehee. Then I shop 2 shirt, a trousers, and a shade, woohhhooo. I can't believe why I did so -.-

Last but not least, I cant wait to go back to Perdana, to start a new day there with a new room but the same 2 soulmate tht I love :) andd andd and, I really miss my Rahim Mohd :'(

horoscope and tarot

These pain tht ive been through change my whole worlds. I couldn't see whts right and whts not. I dnt knw wht else to believe when I am not sure which one are being honest to me. Playing with the horoscope and the tarot totally made me confuse. I know, believing in those will not bring any changes to my life when my heart is the one which decides. But sometimes those things helps me to think and helps me in making decision. Cse after all, my decision was not based on the horoscope or the tarot but still with my own thinking. Thankgod tht I can still think properly and making a right decision. Its not tht im 100% gurantee tht I won't regret in future but at least I've done my part. I just hope the best for all, I won't ask for more. Praying for the miracle will occur in my life

*cross finger.

youngsters

Yesterday, I went to toilet as usual to waste my time during working. On the way back from the toilet, I saw a fucking pathetic scene tht made me felt like puking and laughing. Hahaha omgod I really just cant believe wht i've saw. Its not to say tht only them the only one who had done it but yeahh at least, not at public and not when I see */#$$$$#***!

Sedangku berjln keluar dr tandas prempuan yg berdekatan dgn kdai levis, forever21 , tough which is at sunway pyramid , ada 2 org hamba allah ni sedang berdiri berdekatan dgn sliding door ni. Yg perempuan tgh bersandar kat dinding, yg laki sdg berdiri tegak menghadap perempuan. Org lalu lalang non-stop tak sedar kan diri jgk. Apa la lagi scene mcm ni tkkan la tkde sape dpt teka. I dnt mind and tknk amek tau pon apa yg krg nk buat sme cse bkn nye org lain tk prnh bwt but at least perlu ke buat di khalayak ramai ? Perggh, mereka makeout non-stop bai klh cite hollywood. Kalau ye pn at least bwt la kat tangga ke apa ke or at least get a room dude. Ni tak , suka buat aku ketawa snyp snyp. Bukan apa, lg lg yg prempuan tu rase nye ada laa dlm umur lingkungan 15-17 tahun, yg laki tu nmpk mcm agk tua la sikit kot. But still ? bikin show dpn toilet pon beragak la sikit. heh, funnnaaaaaaaaaay

i couldn't handle a glass

Fuck all the things tht happened ! Seriously I couldn't handle this alone . I really can't work right now. I need a place ;(

its really shocked me up

I was so shocked when i've got to knw tht my brother was involved in a car accident just now. Right after work, i've checked my phone. Pelik rasa nya bila byk sgt notification. Selalu nya bila blk keje, kosong je kalau ada pon ada la satu dua. Ni sampai 8 *$**///?! So yeah, check punya check. I've read a text from my dad ; said tht : Haris accident, cedera ringan. Awk arrange nak blk. Abh & mama kat hsptl sg. buloh. I was like whaaaaaaaaaat and straight away called my dad. As usual, bila tanya, Abah mcm huissshh trok gilaa bla bla padahal ? -.- But yeah thnkgod my brother was save but according to someone tht we dnt knw, the car was pretty bad.

After talked to my brother just now , I just knew tht hes totally out when the car hit the divider. He did not knw everything tht happened to the car. An ambulance just past over the place tht accident happened and took him straight away to the nearest hospital. He woke up when he reached the hospital. Thankgod, he still alive.

But timbul pertanyaan, adakah keta itu su-ey ? After satu satu jadi kat kete baru tu, hurm

semua di cari tak jumpa

After a long time of not posting , today is the day i choose. Happy 5th mnth annivesary :)

Thnks syg, I had a wonderful day just now even not all things went well but im still grateful when ure with me. Today is kinda a not lucky day for me.

Bila ada duit mcm ni jadi nye, smua yg dicari smua tk jumpa. Rahim dah elok elok nk beli kan tu beli kan ni , apa pn takda. Last last, yg dpt brg nye bkn aku tapi dia. Haha mcm bangang, kehulur kehilir disebabkan nak cari sepasang kasut je ? Tapi end up takda jgk. Sedeh tetap sedeh tapi apakan daya nasib nama nya ni.

Ohmygod, Mama merajuk sebab blk lmbt and maybe sbb cuti tak spend time ngn dia. Damn it, but ive already sent a text msg to her said tht im sorry. Hopefully her heart will cool down , amin.

I love you

everyday was fun

This week was full with plan, from last Monday till today. Until now, I haven't get an enough sleep. Last Sunday nite, Mai and I went to Sentul to settle up a things but end up get nothing. Then Monday nite went to IKEA ate meatball since Adam want to drive us there. Not to miss, so we went to pick up Rahim at Sentul. On Tuesday, we went for swimming at Suria Mas. Haha Rahim was so excited since he wants to take some picture in the water, noooooob :P On Wednesday, we went to KL. Did some window shopping end up with depressed since I din't get wht I want due to short of money. Then we went to Rack, played some foosball game. On Thursday, we slept all day long. On the evening, we all did facial and right after tht we continue our sleep. At night, we get ready for Neutral. Reached there quite early since we can only go inside at 12am , zeze. Lastly, Friday where we all went back to our hommiesss. But bfre tht, we still got time to drop by at AC for awhile to play foosball.

And today, I woke up early in the morning followed my parents to MCD for breakfast. Aiyayaya im very sleepy right now.Later, have to attend Adam's sister wedding and at night there is a bbq at his place. So yeahhh, I think Ive got no time to sleep again -.-

Next Monday is my final exam fot this short semester. I am so dead since I haven't revise anything yet. Damn it, somemore my Islamic's marks was pretty bad for last mid sem. Urrrr, I have to work hard for final. Im so gonna do this way better !

Riding on the bike

Last Thursday, I was one of the 'minah rempit'. Okay its kinda out of the mind, but yes I am. It was pretty fun since Rahim was the rider. Actually, it is all bcse of my broken car. Bcse of tht, I had to borrow my brother's motorcylce to go to ss15 to pay up the bills. Anyway I had fun eventhough it was pretty scary tho. We had to went through all the car and so on, and damnn son, it scared me up :S Rahim was kinda scared to ride me on the bike since it was his first time to bring me along. What ever it is, I am still safe and

I love you, R

the accident car

Maa gad, its Thursday and im at Subang right now. Im waiting for the car to fix up. Rahim is here with me right now. Haha he is so boring doing nothing right now while watching tv. Anyway I love u more and more syg :)

Anyway last Monday was my presentation for Management class. I was so nervous the night bfre. So i wanted to prepare for it but I end up the other night done something else instead of preparing for my presentation. I was quite excited actually. Monday morning end me up with a good presentation from my group. We've got such a good compliment by the outside judges, weeeee. Keep it up the good work guys. I am so proud with my group :)

Rahim came to S. Alam last Tuesday after he failed to come on Monday , as usual. So yeah, I was quite excited to see him on the other day. So, after class, straight awy picked Mai up and went to Batu Tiga KTM to fetch Rahim. His train was so fucking late, so we decided to go on the train which directing to S. Alam station and turn bck to Btu Tiga station. It was a fcking stupid idea but it end up with a 'not bad' idea since we're doing nothing while waiting for Rahim. All the way to S. Alam, and we've bought a packet of fresh jambu batu . Haha, at least theres smthng right ?

Okayy im bored right now and pretty hungraaay. Waiting for Kak Nah to finish up with the cooking. Can't wait to eat ! Haha, hve a blast ppl. I am so sleeeepy and wanted to sleeep , as I wished.

never forget

hello homies

Hello :)

Its been a week ++ i left my blog hanging. Too busy to update but now here I am ,at home updating it :)
So many things had happen, I guess I'll just let it be. Time to time i'll story one by one. For now, I just felt like uploading some pictures, soon ! :D

your call

I am so excited to pick up ur call just now. I felt different when u called me. I am superb happy when i talked to u. Felt like a year i din't hear ur voice. But my happiness was being misunderstood. He thinks tht im busy doing smthng else and thts why i was happy. I am so confuse, how else do u want me to be ? :(

stay

no one can replace

I love u more than I did bfre , ure the one tht I need , no one can replace u but it seems so hard fr us to be tgthr , there's alwys prblm came in . I jst dnt knw why but somewhere somehow there will be a prblm between us .

I'll regret one day , I knw. We love each other for sure but why can't we be tgthr peacefully ? We hurt each other too much , we fought almost everyday. But the fact is we love each other .

Haiiiih

if it is our luck

I've reached the end. I jst can't believe it happened. Wht a big impact towards me. It all started with a small issue and it end up with a big changes to me. He follow his heart too much, he doesn't use his instinct or his mind. He do everything without thinking the good nor the bad bfre he did something. It end up by hurting my feeling. When it's time for him to realise, he'll apologize to me. I've alwys forgive him no matter wht. Cse it's hard for me not to forgive him. This time , for wht he said to me was just too hard fr me to accept but I still forgive him. Is jst tht I need time for me to heal from his word. Eventhough it was a simple sentence, for me , his words are killing me. I'm sorry syg , i need some time . I realised , we actually needed the time for us to learn frm our mistake , I believe we will learn frm it and we'll change for good . The time will come but it seems hard for u to wait . This is ur main prblm ,ur heart can't wait , u pushed urself too much , u dint realised tht u also need time fr urself . I'm sorry fr make u waiting ,ure right, u said I'll regret one day and I admit it tht I'll regret but I think it's the best way for us . And I also knw when it's time for me to open bck my heart , it will be too late fr me and I'll regret at tht time. But I believe if he really loves me and if it meant to be our destiny, no matter how long it takes , we will be back together.

I knw I've hurt ur feelings too. I dnt mean too but sometimes it happen bcse of our fight. U said I nvr try to undrstnd ur feeling but I guess if I really dnt undrstnd u , we will nvr reach this stage now. It's not tht I dnt want to consider ur feelings but sometimes I did something bcse I hve to consider my feelings too . If not , I will alwys remains in our darker hour where deep inside i'm dying with all our prblms .

I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, the time will come.

- your love , 16 Sept 2010

dramas

Im tired with all the dramas. Maybe its the time to let it go, to make it happen

festive season

Well, today is the 6th day of Raya and i've just got the chance to update my blog. Being really busy during raya to keep it update. Anyway, bfre its too late, I just wanna wish everybody Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin. For the mistakes tht i've done, hope it will be forgiven. Don't keep it too long cse its not good, cheers.

Basicly, this year Raya was so warm and unexcited at all. It was not like those day where I had so much fun on hari raya but now everything was not the same anymore. So many changes tht I've realised. Well nowdays everything kept changing, nothing will remains. Ohmaaygod, how I miss those days. Besides, angpaw is getting less and lesser. Its hardly to see ppl giving angpaw. Mostly will said tht we're old enough to get it but the truth is, as long as we're still not married, I think we still deserve it actually. Unfortunately, our culture not like chinese's , zeze.

I went back frm Malacca last Monday. Reached home and theres no car. I was like taheck, I wanna go out to see my loves but theres no car. So as usual , melepet di rmh mcm org bodo -.- My frnd came arnd 5 to take awy my cat and then came another frnd right after the frst one left. Oh at last, i've got the chance to see the loves one at night. Cool, i miss them alot. Haha, mcm takleh tk berjumpa sehari, lol. We went out and chill out for awhile :)

stupid faces

I found something tht at least make me laugh when I am in a sorrow

bleeding

Life is just like a wheel, sometimes its at the top and sometimes its at the bottom. I guess mine is at the bottom right now. Im having a rough time , something is jst not right. Yes, the heart is bleeding right now. I can't really see the red blood, but the pain tht I feel is hurting me so badly. I dont expect things will get worst like now. Both of us are hurting each other, did u realise tht ?

I miss you, the way u treat me , the way u look at me, the way u whisper to me, the way u persuade me, the way u used to tell me everything, just the way who u are. Somewhere somehow, things will nvr change by just saying tht 'I miss u so much'. I was really hope tht we could see each other bfre I go bck to Malacca. My hope was just too good to be destroyed by the dissapoint-ness tht I've been through.

Thnks for everything, I miss you.

unexpected things

Burppp, im just done with eating. Breaking fast with KFC a few minutes ago. Tick tock tick tock, we've reach the 25th day of fasting month. This is so fast. Felt like fasting month had just started few days back. Anyway, we will soon celebrating Hari Raya . weeeeeee can't wait !

Well, I jst shopped some clothes just now. Again and again, I bought smthng tht really unexpected which is out of my list. Damn it, I just can't resist frm buying all the stuff tht i saw jst now. Cotton On jst make me out of my mind ! I was supposely buy 2 tops and 1 heels but I end up with 2 top, 1 dress, 1 jeans and 1 wedges, zezeze. Actually, I've already set my mind to not buy any jeans anymore but urghhhh, I dnt knw why I bought it jst now. haiyayaya