your call

I am so excited to pick up ur call just now. I felt different when u called me. I am superb happy when i talked to u. Felt like a year i din't hear ur voice. But my happiness was being misunderstood. He thinks tht im busy doing smthng else and thts why i was happy. I am so confuse, how else do u want me to be ? :(

stay

no one can replace

I love u more than I did bfre , ure the one tht I need , no one can replace u but it seems so hard fr us to be tgthr , there's alwys prblm came in . I jst dnt knw why but somewhere somehow there will be a prblm between us .

I'll regret one day , I knw. We love each other for sure but why can't we be tgthr peacefully ? We hurt each other too much , we fought almost everyday. But the fact is we love each other .

Haiiiih

if it is our luck

I've reached the end. I jst can't believe it happened. Wht a big impact towards me. It all started with a small issue and it end up with a big changes to me. He follow his heart too much, he doesn't use his instinct or his mind. He do everything without thinking the good nor the bad bfre he did something. It end up by hurting my feeling. When it's time for him to realise, he'll apologize to me. I've alwys forgive him no matter wht. Cse it's hard for me not to forgive him. This time , for wht he said to me was just too hard fr me to accept but I still forgive him. Is jst tht I need time for me to heal from his word. Eventhough it was a simple sentence, for me , his words are killing me. I'm sorry syg , i need some time . I realised , we actually needed the time for us to learn frm our mistake , I believe we will learn frm it and we'll change for good . The time will come but it seems hard for u to wait . This is ur main prblm ,ur heart can't wait , u pushed urself too much , u dint realised tht u also need time fr urself . I'm sorry fr make u waiting ,ure right, u said I'll regret one day and I admit it tht I'll regret but I think it's the best way for us . And I also knw when it's time for me to open bck my heart , it will be too late fr me and I'll regret at tht time. But I believe if he really loves me and if it meant to be our destiny, no matter how long it takes , we will be back together.

I knw I've hurt ur feelings too. I dnt mean too but sometimes it happen bcse of our fight. U said I nvr try to undrstnd ur feeling but I guess if I really dnt undrstnd u , we will nvr reach this stage now. It's not tht I dnt want to consider ur feelings but sometimes I did something bcse I hve to consider my feelings too . If not , I will alwys remains in our darker hour where deep inside i'm dying with all our prblms .

I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, the time will come.

- your love , 16 Sept 2010

dramas

Im tired with all the dramas. Maybe its the time to let it go, to make it happen

festive season

Well, today is the 6th day of Raya and i've just got the chance to update my blog. Being really busy during raya to keep it update. Anyway, bfre its too late, I just wanna wish everybody Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin. For the mistakes tht i've done, hope it will be forgiven. Don't keep it too long cse its not good, cheers.

Basicly, this year Raya was so warm and unexcited at all. It was not like those day where I had so much fun on hari raya but now everything was not the same anymore. So many changes tht I've realised. Well nowdays everything kept changing, nothing will remains. Ohmaaygod, how I miss those days. Besides, angpaw is getting less and lesser. Its hardly to see ppl giving angpaw. Mostly will said tht we're old enough to get it but the truth is, as long as we're still not married, I think we still deserve it actually. Unfortunately, our culture not like chinese's , zeze.

I went back frm Malacca last Monday. Reached home and theres no car. I was like taheck, I wanna go out to see my loves but theres no car. So as usual , melepet di rmh mcm org bodo -.- My frnd came arnd 5 to take awy my cat and then came another frnd right after the frst one left. Oh at last, i've got the chance to see the loves one at night. Cool, i miss them alot. Haha, mcm takleh tk berjumpa sehari, lol. We went out and chill out for awhile :)

stupid faces

I found something tht at least make me laugh when I am in a sorrow

bleeding

Life is just like a wheel, sometimes its at the top and sometimes its at the bottom. I guess mine is at the bottom right now. Im having a rough time , something is jst not right. Yes, the heart is bleeding right now. I can't really see the red blood, but the pain tht I feel is hurting me so badly. I dont expect things will get worst like now. Both of us are hurting each other, did u realise tht ?

I miss you, the way u treat me , the way u look at me, the way u whisper to me, the way u persuade me, the way u used to tell me everything, just the way who u are. Somewhere somehow, things will nvr change by just saying tht 'I miss u so much'. I was really hope tht we could see each other bfre I go bck to Malacca. My hope was just too good to be destroyed by the dissapoint-ness tht I've been through.

Thnks for everything, I miss you.

unexpected things

Burppp, im just done with eating. Breaking fast with KFC a few minutes ago. Tick tock tick tock, we've reach the 25th day of fasting month. This is so fast. Felt like fasting month had just started few days back. Anyway, we will soon celebrating Hari Raya . weeeeeee can't wait !

Well, I jst shopped some clothes just now. Again and again, I bought smthng tht really unexpected which is out of my list. Damn it, I just can't resist frm buying all the stuff tht i saw jst now. Cotton On jst make me out of my mind ! I was supposely buy 2 tops and 1 heels but I end up with 2 top, 1 dress, 1 jeans and 1 wedges, zezeze. Actually, I've already set my mind to not buy any jeans anymore but urghhhh, I dnt knw why I bought it jst now. haiyayaya

six day

After 6 days of not fasting, today I've starting to puasa again ! Yeahhhhh, I din't miss so many days this time. Not like last year, thankgod :)

broken phone

I felt so tired at work yesterday. I stand up all day long and sometimes I felt asleep while i am standing up. I almost fall down. Tht is so stupid ! How can it not happen since I've got no enough time for sleep, then I've got class in the morning, then right after tht, I hve to go for work. Of crse I'll be a dead meat -.- I went bck last night, I called Rahim and straight awy felt asleep right after I hung up the phone with him. I din't wash my face and so on, euwwww. It shows tht I am really tired tho -.-

I am so depressed here. My phone is broken ! Urghh, out of sudden, early of Thursday morning, I check my phone was alrdy stuck. It was pending, so I off my phone. When I switch it on, some of my key pad was not functioning. At first, I dnt really mind since my phone still can be use but when it comes to texting time, it really try my patient. Grr, its fcking annoying since I can texting without spacing. Ppl thinked tht I was so dumb to text without spacing -.- I think its time to change my phone, teeeheeeee . But the prblm now is, I've got no money u mofo ! Sob sob, I think I should wait. I jst got a new lappy from my parents, so I dnt want to persuade them with the phone this time. So, I shall wait till the right time.

I miss my baby :( I love u syg, always !

a week becoming a happy person

Damn it, i've just got the time to update my blog this week. How i miss it man. Basicly, 1 week bck was a happy week for me. I jst dnt knw why, but the happy moment was there. Anyway, I met my puppy eyes last Monday after a long day of not seing him since our anni. At last, we just got the chance to meet each other. I miss him, like alot , seriously. So yeah, we hang out together with my bstfrn at Sunway till the countdown of our National Day. Actually it was not really a countdown, it just like a plain gathering. Before the countdown, we went to watched movie, 'Grown ups'. It was sort of comedy movie but at the same time, there's slightly of some love chapter they showed which is so sweet :) After the movie finished, we went to AC. Its been quite a while I din't got there with friends. So yeah, it could be call a fun night. Anyway, i've got a surprise from Rahim. He bought me a bagpack tht I wanted for a long time on tht day. He bought for me without me realising it. Tht is so sweet syg, thankyou so much. U knw right, how really mean u to me bby.

The next day which is on Tuesday, I went back to Subang and went out with my family. The day it self, I was so tired cse I couldn't get enough sleep. I was supposely do some shop for Hari Raya but it end up buying nothing. Theres nothing I can find at Empire or Subang Parade. Nothing at all ! The stuff tht I wanna buy was jst not somewhere arnd there. Lastly, my dad jst bought me a new boot for rugby and I just bought some make up stuff. What a plain shopping. I was suppose to get a Raya shoes but I've got a Raya boot -.-

On Wednesday, as usual I hve to attend my class. In Islamic class, we jst got inform tht our quiz on next Monday has to be done erliar which is yesterday, Friday. I was so shock since I din't revise the topic at all. Errr, at tht time, I only left 2 days to make some revision. So, I did a fast revision and end up, yesterday quiz was okay, thankgod :)

2 days ago, I met Rahim again. I've took him to MidV and Pavillion since he really wanted to show me shoes tht he wanted to buy. So yeahh, he kinda confuse on which one he wanna buy. He still haven't decide to buy which one. Pity u syg, I've alrdy told u to buy which one but u still want to buy the expensive one. So up to u k bby, heee. No matter wht, I still love u :)