Hey bloggie , Im scared to start cse I dnt feel good and I know i'll end up this blog wit the tears. Of course I dnt wnt it to happen .

Things doesn't happen as I wished . Maybe God set it up and wants me to get better than wht I wish in future. The problem is , shall I wait ? I've tried my best to hold on to this battle , but all I know , im almost to the end . I couldn't stay longer , I have no enough weapon to fight for it. Im looking up for a reasonable reason fr wht has happen but Im still clue-less

3 weeks of not seeing u , brings a lot of differences . I can’t imagine how the others who were in long distance relationship managed to cope with it. Don’t u feel lost or weird with the unoccupied space ?

I just need somebody to be love like I used to love with all my heart . I am not asking for someone new , but all I need is the old u . I know and I realised , the feelings wasn’t the same anymore . I just don’t feel the butterflies or the excitement when I see u . But but deep inside, I know tht I miss looking at ur face in reality. There’s just something tht happened which bring so much of changes . U broke my heart wit ur attitude. Don’t u realized u hurting me in that way ? Besides , all I know , tht I am just still waiting for something to happen. Something tht I asked since my birthday, when u were not even here celebrating with me. It was a simple wished , but I don’t knw why its hard for u to make it thru until now . I am not asking u to do something tht ure not capable, but it was really a simple wish . I need something to open up my heart , something tht could bring me the spark when I am with u. Something tht could make me not to give up on loving u. That is all I need.

Long time no see

Life was pretty good in some part of the situation and some was not as I wish to happen . Oh blog , long time no see, I MISS YOU ALOT. Anyway, a gateway to Labuan and Johor kinda loosen up my mind . To forget things tht shouldn’t remain in my mind . All game was pretty awesome . I just miss being all over the place. Life was good at that moment.

Why do people so hard to respect others ? U think u are big enough to insult people just like that ? Think people think , everyone does have their own feelings . Not every words they can accept but u tend to give out all the words tht hardly to be heard. Besides, ure making thing worst by not take thing seriously and tend to not appreciate people with their high effort . When u people gonna realized tht ? After every high effort becoming nothingless ? Oh god , I just can't imagine how long it will takes u to realized everything tht happen is worth for every effort tht could be done. I am gonna let u take as much time as u need if tht is wht ure asking for .

Life won't get any easier. Sometimes ure at the stage where u can't determine which path to choose . Because of the fear , ure just scared enough to make any decision . When u think tht decision was the best , it was actually the worst decision ever . U tend to not make any decision after all. Unfortunately, life is all about making decision in all the action u take . So the best thing to do is think wisely .

A difficult task is not an easy things to complete . I can see it coming and I knw tht im gonna fail it . I thought I was strong to hold on it but the fact tht im really weak right now. Take a look me now , I am just like an empty space. Im out of view to see whats wrong and whats right . Hence , I am not good enough on correcting things tht are totally wrong . I am not perfect but I am just an ordinary person who would like to be appreciated once in awhile

Free day

Hey, its Friday tho. Well , it seems like im out of idea cse there is nothing intresting to talk abt. Tomorrow is Saturday and everyone knows tht but I am so excited for tomorrow. It gonna be my first off days after being working for 2 months without holiday. So yeah , Im goin to Bukit Tinggi as for my mom's office family day. I am not really excited for the family day thingy actually , but I just cannot wait to go up there since its been awhile tht I went travelling with my family . So I guess its gonna be my fun trip for this time , perhaps. One more thing , it is so hot nowadays . I hope it gonna be cold up there, heeeee. Enjoyyyyy

U make me smiles, u make me sad,
u make me laugh , u make me cried ,
u make me feels like I am the only happy girl in this world , u make me feels the pain tht u put me through ,
u make me feels I am at the top of the mountain , u make me feel down the hill,
u make me to fogive u when u did wrong , u make me as if im reaching the limit to let u go ,
u make me think there is no other option , u make me think twice,
u make me wake up from my sleep and realised tht I am living in a reality where I am in love with the only man which is u, Rahim mohd.

When I first met u , I said to myself , with a person like u , I dnt think I can hold on for so long. But god is fair , trying to prove tht wht ppl tought will not always right without his permission. Bcse everything tht happen has already been wrote by him. Through ups and downs , we have been through alot of things together . The time past by too fast , and I can't believe tht we have already pass our 1 year moment . The truth , we have alot more to learn and to understand each other better. So , I hope we can make it for another year.

As u knw , I'll always love u even we always fight and my heart almost can't be fixed with wht u had done to me but the truth , ur love is so strong and I can't stop from loving u. Thnks for being there for me . I love you , sayang.

HAPPY 1ST YEAR ANNIVESSARY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I've been blessed with beautiful friends . Eventhough it was a simple celebration , I really appreciate it and I am happy with it. When the taught is there , everything tht happen will make u smile . Thanks people , u knw tht I always love you and no matter wht I will be hold on to it as long as I can .

Well , I am now turning 19th . No more 18-ish , so kiddy . My birthday went well but not as great as if Rahim could join us celebrating it with me. But I couldn't denied tht if it happen without my friends, it will be worst . Cse they were always with me through ups and downs. Anyway ,I was kinda upset , I couldn't hold up my tears . I was never stop wishing for my boi to come back , came up all out of sudden on my door and surprise me but for god sake, it won't happen cse hes thousand miles away . It is suck when ur special person in ur life are are not with u on ur special day and it was even ur first year annivessary . Too bad , I couldn't ask for more , I have to face it . So please baby, make sure u make me feels like I am the special girl ever in the world when u come back here .

Last but not least, once again , thnkyou for all those who wished and I really appreciate it. Thnks for making my day like Im the only happy person in the world. Love u guys :)

Transform

BEFORE

AFTER

At last i've cut my hair after so long wanting it. I din't regret cse it something new after had a same old style of hair :)

Anyway , final exam had already started. Arghh, my first Business Communication paper was being an ass to me. Im so gonna get low mark for it. Oh god, pls not. Tmoro will be my last paper :) Organisation Behaviour paper pls be nice to me. I hope I can do it , wish me luck :)

I am missing you

Its hard for me to let him go ystrdy. I was speechless and have know idea on what we’re trying to talk about. When we sat in the car , we were like a statue, got nothing to say and the truth, I won’t be able to look at his face even for a second. Bcse I knw if I did it , the tears won’t stop falling down. Yes I know, its only for few days. Its not that he went away for a month or a year but I just don’t know why my feelings turns to be that way. Come on Lena, its only 4 days, it isn’t tht long tho . I realised tht but hey, tht is not the problem man. It just sad to know that ure byfren are not gonna be around on ur coming special day. It is in another 2 days and he left.

Honestly , I really want him to be with me on this Friday but tht is so impossible, Im telling you here. I thought he will be around celebrating with me for the second time, on the second year, on our first year anni but it turns the other way around . Wake up Lena, u just have to accept the fact . Its not tht U dnt have anybody around to celebrate with. Yeah im chilling right now………cool man cool.

Oh boy, I just wanna see u on the day u landed here and it is a MUST . The truth , I am the one who scared if I will be the one who couldn’t make it , hmm. Bismillah , I hope I can make it ;’)

Take care ,I Love You sayang <3