I'm not running awy frm the problem ,
I am just too tired on fixing it

new routine

Heyyy Good Afternoon.

Its a good date, but its not a good day for me. Well, have to cheer every moment tht passing us by. Life is not always fair, anyhow we tend to be fair. Trying hard to get better moment, but it just hard tho. Things keep changing, that's the problem. When u care, they seems like getting annoyed but when u don't care they goes like , why don't u ask me anymore abt wht am I doing ? Ohgod, life is so pathetic.

Well, I am sort of doing some new routine here fr a healthy life I guess. Oh I started to jog last Monday and it continuously yesterday. Its a good sign, teehee. Farid even taught me how to get rid of the fats arnd my arms. He asked me to have a look at Youtube, so I did since we dnt have a chance to see each other and to teach me that. I've tried it, dammmn it looks so easy but try to do it plsss. Its very tiring tho, I felt like a loser doing it , Zzz. Anyway, I will keep doing the routine till I see any difference towards it.

I was left alone the whole day of yesterday, after jogging I felt asleep with a pretty nice weather. Woke up and shockingly surprised, its alrdy 8pm. So yeah, I cooked and ate my dinner. There's no one accompany me. Thought the rest would come back after 10pm but I see the door doesn't open and even no text. So yeah, cheer myself watching tv till i've got nthng else to watch. Everybody seems busy, so here am I alone waiting fr nothing. Cheering my every moment on the bed till the lullaby get me sleep.

Happy 11th month Annivessary, ure the one who still remains in my heart, and no one else. Doubt it if u want, but deep inside, im loving u sincerely. Note it .

Have a nice day, and dnt make it a worst day just like me. Goodbye.

I wanna go, I wanna go

I am so looking forward for a vacation. I really need it I guess. Hopefully I can make it on June's holiday if only my college is on holiday. Cse some ppl said, my college will be only get hldy fr 1 week which is too short -.-' Hope they were wrong and in return i'll be on 1 month off :) Since I am working , I approximately my budget will be enough for it. So yeah, I still haven't decide where should I go. But but but on July im going to Labuan. Am I gonna have some short of money ? Hrmmmmmmmmmm

working place

So, this me when the boredom strikng. This is my working place, Doll Couture :) Cute isn't ?



Let me tell u something, I am so freaking hungrayy right now and it is so cold here. How can I survive till 10pm ? I actually having an assingment to finish up but urghh , im just not into it. I have to type an essay and I have no brilliant idea right now. So, what should I do now ? Haiyayai. The due date is actually today but I just found out abt it, so yeah , I have to pass it up tomorrow and yet i am still have not start it with a single word at least ? Lalalalalalala

this broadband is pissing me off

This fucking YES broadband is pissing me off. I just dnt knw whts wrong with it but I did topup yesterday, dayyyymmm. I have to start searching my point fr my assingment, so i really really need to use the broadband when im at home. Urggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Well, I am at my working place, onlining using my laptop with wi-fi just to feel good after my broadband acting like shit towards me , wohoooo !

Neway, I finished work at 3pm ystrday cse I need to see my boy. I am jst missing him so badly, so yeahhhh I did meet him ystrday. When I was at my working place, I was so cold and keep complaining tht im dying freezing while the rest keep twittering tht they was dying outside by the freaking hot weather. At tht time, I just can't imagine how hot it can be. Well, going back time, I was one step outside of the entrance of Sunway Pyramid, a bit and a bit of the coldness was taken awy. The hot temperature keep on absorbing into my skin. Oh god, I just realized how thnkful I should be when I was in Sunway hour bfre tht and should not complaining abt the cold-ness. Like seriously, the weather was really trying to kill me. Travelled to KL with the maximum aircond-on, all the way and I still can't really feel the aircond, dusssshhhhhhhhhhhh. Bersabar je yg mampu aku lakukan -.-'

Here we go, reached there and met up my boy. Auww really miss him. We went to Ferrenheit had our lunch and went for window shopping at Pavi. We just like wasting our time walk arnd and appreciate every moment of ours, auwwww. Love u baby !

Yeah mcm ni la bila time baik , syg bagai nak rak, bila dh gaduh, apa pn tkda -.-'

lovely weather

Happy Saturday morning ! I just love the weather, so cold and calm :)

Yeah im at my cribs, loving it. Working at 2pm so I've still have chance to relax fr awhile. Mom is going to Langkawi tmoro fr her work so my Subang's hse gonna be a MAN'S HSE since Kaknah was away and Haris came back fr 4days. Mom gonna be back by Wednesday. Well im gonna stay at Suriamas so I just can't imagine how this hse gonna be in 4 days time. I bet Mama gonna yelling when shes coming back. Lucky me , im not gonna be at home so no yelling at me, yeaaaayyy.

I am just missing my boy. Well he work pretty hard this week. Pity him, hes gonna be tired tho, let him rest then. This week was pretty good I guess, we fought less, anyhow we solve it calmly and not yelling at each other. Hrmm good sign I guess ? Time flies so fast, just can't recall how u managed took my heart awy keep it til now. Even how long we are, I am still having the excited-ness seing u in every each day, hope it stays forever tho.

Maiyayai is away. She went to Bangkok yesterday. I was really forgotten abt her flight, so on Thursday night, I was expected her to be home with me since Fiqa not coming back but I ended up sitting alone at home. I just remember after I got text msg frm her, silly me -.-' Anyway have funn my fren, I knw u gonna shopping till ur jaw drop , haha gonna be impressed with all those stuff there, *hopefully ite ? Gonna miss u, take care along the journey :)

Goodbye Saturday Morning ! :)

awesome-ness

Its been almost 2 weeks I dint post any news. Ive been so busy and no Internet connection makes my life being harder. Anyway let's talk abt the important stuff only, or else , it will be alot to recap.

First of all , I would like to announce that I've alrdy started working, yeah at last after a long searching. It's been 10days I've started working. It is just a small shop selling accessories, Doll Couture. Well the job was pretty easy and flexible enough. My boss was nice , I loiked :) I've got angpaw on my first day frm de boss , cool ite ? Hihi. So far I am quite relaxing with this Job , I've Even got time to study during working hour , awesome huh ? Let's pray that I'll stay longer with this job , wee

Oh so far , I love last week. It just a week that full of kachingg $$. Too bad , it was only last week And not this week , sob . I earn extra income fr being extras in celcom advertisement. It was okay eventhough it was so tiring but we've been given food non stop, so yeah :)

Last night was awesome , SPEEDZONE TOUR 2011. I am so loving it. Had pretty fun time with my girls, my lovely 2 chicks. Eventhough I was pretty messed up with him , but I jst dnt want it to hold my mood just like that . So yeah , I've got my girls and the boys to dance with , so I am happy even the guy that I need the most was not standing by me at all the times , I'm glad I've got my awesome friends. Luckily at the end we get cool tgther, or else I just felt it a waste of time going there tgther when I can be happier when im only with ma frnds. So yeah , we were shooting star like nobody business , I'm glad that it is not wasted for me being there all night long. Jyeahhhh man :)

Anyway , I'm pretty exhausted right now . I've got not enough rest frm yesterday . Penattt nya. I just wanna close the shop ASAP and go back home sleep .Goodbye :)

Illegally

Here i am now, at the OPEN LAB. Haha its my first time, all alone here with some random ppl.

Anyway, there's alot to talk about since I was not online for quite a long time. Okay I am gonna make it short and clear.

Firstly, my bff, Fiqa was away to Indonesia due to last week. Thankgod she flew away with safe and came back with safe too. According to her story, she was so happy along the journey eventhough she had to went through along the bumpy road with quite an old car, and wht so ever but she managed to get to wherever she wants. I feel happy for her when shes feel great on her vacation :) Duhhhh, shopping at Bandung was awesome, and everybody knows that. She bought me a sandal, cute small coin purse, and ciggy frm there. So sweet of u ,my dear and thnks alot cse I am appreciating it :)

Secondly, I was away to JB last Saturday for attending Rahim's sister's wedding. The journey was ran smoothly eventhough we all had to suffered with the hot aircond for more than 5 hours in the bus. Thanks to Mai for made it for me at the last minute or else i'll be dying alone with all those Makcik's, Zeze. Rahim's family was so nice and I really appreciate it. I was kinda awkward at first but I managed to get along with them. But the neighbour which is those Makciks, Oh goddd, they talked like alot likeee really really alot ! Just imagined after a long journey, everybody could be so tired, but the Makciks can be chit-chating fr so long until the sun rise. Magaaaaddd, aren't u guys are quite old and should be tired and sleeping at that kind of hour ? Zeze. Anyway, we managed to go to Danga Bay. The place , errm quite a sweet place. The place was like sitting at the table besides the sea, erm something like that. Quite a romantic place at night, hihi. There is also funfair over there. It could be sweet if we managed to ride on the couple bicycle, cse it seems like so fun riding on it. But the time was running fast, we had to go back early, so saddddd. Rahim being so sweet eventhough I had to make faces at first, but yeah , he bought me the helium love balloon, so happpppyyyyyyy. I was planning to let it go as soon as I reached KL but so sad when the balloon was already shrink by the time when I reach KL :(

Third, it was my annivesary mannn! Damn, I couldn't believe it when this relationship gonna be my longest relationship so far. So many things to deal with but so far I managed to take it slow even alot of heart feeling here and there. Hope tht we could last long together. I just wanna wish u HAPPY 10MONTH ANNIVESARY BABYY :)

Fourth, magaddddd it is the first week of new short sem ! Time is running fast I guess. So happyyyy ! I just can't wait when end of last sem will shoot me on :) Anyway, short sem wasn't tht great since all my good friends at college was not in the same class anymore. It could be boring but the subject was not tht bad. So i guess, I should learn properly and get good result for this sem. Since it is a short sem, its the time for me to concentrate more and get good grade for this sem *cross finger :)

I guess till here will be more than enough , should upload some pictures when I get my lappy soon which is at home , Zeze. Goodbye :)

small kid is always cute

I reached home frm Sentul arnd 6++ just now. Right after that, I was felt asleep. I was kinda tired and woke up arnd 11pm just now after I heard my phone ringing. I feel so fresh since I've got plenty of time for sleep. Anyway, the wedding was ran smoothly just now. Baby was quite busy with his stuff. I was so lucky cse i've got Mai accompanied me or else I will be dying in bored-ness. Okayy thts way too much , tipu la kan. Haha, anyway thnks to Mai :) Oh and at last, I've got the chance to met Akhil , Rahim's nephew . Auuwwww he is totally adorable, so cuteeeee! Just like the picture tht Rahim showed me bfre. I feel like taking his awy but too bad, the mother need him more than I do, haha. Anyway, congrats Kak Nadia :)

I've got nothing better to do now since i am wide awake and its already 3.15 am in the morning. Well this is suck since he already sleep, so fast, haiyayai. Im on holiday but there's no awesome plan to run off, its gonna be boring tho. I wished i've got plenty of money right now and I can go where ever I want, how lucky am I if im like ones, keep dreaming on baby. Sob.

It sucks when im really missing him but he dnt react exactly the same how I feel.

head up, more coming over

Well today is Saturday , time flies so fast . Yeay , final had over and new sem coming up . Meantime, I'll take this opportunity to get a little rest and have some fun :) so let's recap the entire week.

Lets begin frm last Sunday. Sleepover at suriamas and love came over. We had our wrestling session over there. Urgh like seriously , we're fighting like no mercy. At least i still have some humor sense but him ? He was totally don't care wht was happening. He treated me like a dog , and exactly like on the wrestling show. Okayy it was totally hurt my body but we both really had fun fighting tgthr :)

Marketing paper on Wednesday was urgh erm okay la, so so. But overall if plus minus with my carry mark, I guess im still lack of mark for my pointer. Move on to IT paper. Hrm this paper also was okay la. Not tht bad, but it was the same situation as my Marketing paper. So, let just wait for the results :)

Thursday night was pretty fun even he kinda ruined my night but at least I had some fun with Mai, Fiqa and Qila. Since my exam had over, I can danced all the way free-ing my mind without a second thinking abt wht to study next, heh.

Have to go yawl, Baby's sister wedding :)

why u left me, sob

Oh well, I just can't believe tht I can survived a week without my broadband. Dad refused to pay since he short of cash, so yeah a week without social networking. Anyway i've got a ton of good and bad story to tell, so let me begin.

First, im going to talk abt my Rushel. She passed awy last Monday. I just can't believed it when I received a called frm Mai early in the morning. I was so sad and kinda frustrated at tht time. Since its a gift frm Rahim, I just can't believe tht I neglected my responsible towards Rushel. When I went back to TTDI, I straight awy looked at my turtles, yes its true abt the news. It was so sad looking at Rushell floated upside-down and knowing tht she's dead. I just can't see it anymore and straight awy cleaned the place. I felt so guilty but no matter wht I still have to let Rahim knw abt it, so I did text him and told him abt it. I was freaking crying when he started to blame me abt Rushel's death. I was so pissed off when he was not there when I needed him the most. He can still blamed me instead of comfirt me ? What the hell is tht, urghh. Luckily, he got a pissed frm me and tried to comfirt me back right after tht or else he just gonna get frm me eventhought I knw it was my fault. But at least kan ? Comfirt me la kan ? Not all the way blaming me, aiyayai. Anyway, I really admit tht it was my fault. I miss Rushel, hoped she died in peace :( Im so gonna take a good care of Bobby after this. I'll promised ;'(

Now lets move to a good news. I had quite a rough week , Alhamdullilah I can managed it. I dnt knw why can I just stop fighting with Rahim. There must be something going on, non of the days we can live without arguing. Whataheck man ? But after all, he came for me. We managed to settle down but not all issues. Next day, we started a new scene again, like tafack ? Macam macam la, padahal benda kecik, tak fhm aku. Haih, the worst part is now he's busy with his new gadget. He just received his new BB but pls la weh, everybody has it but its not tht 24 hours eyes on the phone, heh. Besides, he once told me tht wht if im having a BB, I am for sure will be busy with it and started to ignore him but wht says u now ? Isn't it the other way arnd ? Kan kena balik muka sendiri -.-'

He just got back frm Redang, so he bought me a giant turtle to be compare to Bobby and Rushel and a t-shirt from there. He just got to knw that Rushel gonna die and on the other hand, he bought the giant turtle to replace Rushel. It can't be replaced but I really appreciate the turtle bear, it is so cute. So I put it in the car :)

Let's move on, it was my examination week. So far 3 papers are done ! All the 3 subject being so nice to me. I din't do so well but I guess I just did the best out of all. So let just wait and see for the result tho. 2 more paper to go, and I can say tht it was the hardest subject for me. Cse I knw, I dnt study well on those subject cse I dnt really like the subject. But I really dnt want the 2 subject will cause my pointer to drop. I really have to study hard no matter what, 4 more days to go and I believe tht I still have time to cover all the chapter, Insyaallah :)

Hrmm what else huh ? Ohhh, we had our time staying at Suriamas Hotel. Ceyhh konon nya la hotel kan , freaak -.-' So yeah, we managed to stay there peacefully and had our great time on vacation. Such a long time tho, we din't hang out like tht kind of precious time. What more can I say? It just a great time tho.

Not to forget ! Baby just got a new permanent job and he started this morning ! Weeee, I am so happy for him. At last kan kan ? But I think the paid is not worth it for him but as a started he has to be grateful. I knw, hes going to have less time for me after this. I really have to suck it up and deal with it no matter wht. It is for his own good too, so I have to bare with it. Anything for him :')

Last and but not least, VIVA just went out frm the hospital this morning. Went all the way to B. Beruntung to fetch VIVA and brought it safely back. It looks good after the worst accident. Felt so awkward driving it just now, exactly like the first time I drove it a year before. I guess this week im gonna drive it tho, weee

Oh god, this is wht happen when I stop blogging for awhile. Too many things to cramp in a post. I shall stop now, im just too tired waking up early in the morning.
Goodbye :)

dissapointment

Basicly, I am still not starting with my revision. Well Finance paper is on Monday, im so gonna die but im pretty sure I can do this, caiyok ! I'll try to do the best this time, im gonna make my pointer flying colours this time, make everybody proud of me, Amin.

Game against Blacks A jst now was really really a dissapointment. Its not bcse we loose or wht, but hello , aren't we suppose to play full-time ? Just bcse they had to catch up their flight earliar then they had to cut the game off earliar. Come on, this is so unfair ! We knw, we can win this time , haih. Anyhow, it could be the last 15's game for now. Im so gonna miss it, sob. Don't worry, i'll step up this year, gonna work hard, maybe I can try to play 7's this time ? Perghh, angan lebih sgt tp tak slh kan mencuba ? But it is going to be tough tho, heh but i'll try !

So this is it? Silent treatment ? I just can't stay at home, I'll keep thinking. I end it up with nothing. Whats up ?!

struggling

Fuih, after a long long sem, I am so done with my last assingment and presentation. Im happy for it , eventhough IT was so not my subject. My part for the presentation was not tht great but thnkgod I managed to settled it down since im kind a nervous. Anyway, final starts on Monday so I shall be prepared by right. Wish me luck, gonna work hard for it , I just wanna be the best and succes in all paper. Amin.

I just feel like screaming out loud, right now, at this hour. I dnt knw whts up with me tho. Did I think too much or just me being so uncapable to go through all these ? I might look happy as if like nthng happen when I talked abt it but deep inside, my heart is struggling to be release and not to remain inside. Everyday, every minutes, every each second, it was so impossible fr me to escape frm any fights. Why it was so hard for me ?

Sometimes, I just miss the old you

singapore trips

I guess second post will be the best idea for now since its too long for the first one. Yeahhh lets talk abt Singapore ! :)

I went there last Friday night by a car trip. Stayed at my team-mate’s hse at JB since we’ve got game the next day at S’pore. I really had fun in tht game eventhough we lose again -.-‘ But yeah, I really satisfied since coaches and friends said tht im improving :) Thankyou so much.

So yeah, I stayed at S’pore for 1 night just to look arnd S’pore. I explored a bit of S’pore and knws well some part of it now. Thnks to AT to bring me arnd, really appreciate it :)

I miss Rahim a lot when I was there, and I still haven’t meet him until today . So Im so gonna meet him later, teeeheeeeeee. Goodbye :)

cat fight

It’s been awhile of not posting any story here, how I miss it. A lot of things to let it out here, like sooo many thangggs.

First of all, the worst nightmare I ever had. Unfortunately, it happened in reality. A ‘CAT FIGHT’ with a bloody stupid ‘kampung’ girl I ever seen. It happened to be my own housemate , what a sad story to live with. I never thought of being in this kind of situation, cse I wasn’t grew up to fight with someone for something tht is not worth it. The worst part, we’re like arguing abt the toilet but fighting like im stealing her boyfriend. Damnn this is really bad, its like in a drama tht I always watched bfre. Pulling the hair, punch here and there, seriously, it was so dramatic. Please la bitch , help urself to be a better girl next time. Don’t be silly but acted like ure old enough and matured, it is so lame ogaaay. I still can’t believe that I’ve been through this kind of situation and till now I am still regret cse I din’t punch up her face. Arghhh , it will be a satisfaction if I get to punch her nose :/

Lets go to the next story. Urghh, such a frustrated week. Non of these day tht I’ll escape from fighting with him. From one to another, well I get used to it alrdy. When it comes to the sweet moment, I really do appreciate it. So yeah, last Friday bfre I went to Singapore, we had dinner together. Its quite a long time we din’t go for such proper dinner. Yet, I still get myself rushed up fr the dinner bfre I left KL on tht nite. Kenny Rogers was the best choice but we regret it so much since we get sucks food frm them. The portion its like so small now, seriously, I feels like its not worth it anymore Heh -.-‘

Anyway, Happy 9th month Annivesary syg :)

Oh and not to forget,I was so surprised tht I’ve met my uncle at MSU. He was there to set up sounds sytem for an event. So I get to enter the event for free :O It was the first time I attend an event frm my college itself. Too bad it sucks, but the experience tht counted actually. Had fun with my college mate. The karaoke part and late night dinner was the best :)

dreaming

108 of rosses ? Candle light dinner ? Its all bullshit but i am still waiting for it. It is more like a dream that will never come true. Aiyaya, keep dreaming on Lena, and u keep on giving me false hopes.

Bila hari nak berubah ? Hari penuh dgn keceriaan mungkin ? Bukan hari penuh dgn kemarahan or kesedihan, haih

Singapore games

After each day of non-stop argument, u at least make me smile once :) 2 hours bfre the departure time was really a last minute decision. We fought all night long and at the end, I received a sweet msg from him. I was really touched after I read the msg. I just can't believe tht u can still think wisely and be that sweet baby. My wished came true, thnks baby :)

I reached Mont Kiara sharply at .730 in the morning ysterday. I can't believe Rahim reached there earliar than me, haha. So sweet to see him really into it when hes begging his dad to send him to RSC. He supposely went to RSC by car, unfortunately his dad's car got blocked by other car, so he went there by motorcycle. Auww just can't imagine that he rather ride on the motorcycle just not to be late for it. Proceed, I just can't sleep all the way to Singapore since we played a lot of game in the bus. The game was really fun and I really enjoyed it :)

Basicly, the game at Singapore yesterday was the great game ever. So far, I guess we played better this time. A lot of improvement, nice job done by us even there was slightly mistake tht we've done but to be compared with the last time game, its way different. Now every single player knows what to do, and to be true, I really knw what is exactly my job on the field now. Its really interesting tho . I cannot wait for the next game, teheee.

I love surprise

I hope to see ur face early in the morning, how I wished ure doing me a surprise

drive me crazy

This is insane, I am supposely be sleeping right now and waking up at 6 am but wht happen to me ? Its already 3.08 am, urggh this is really bad. Going to Singapore soon, weee.

Like wht i've expected, I dnt think so u're going. I just can't live with false hopes, it makes me sick. I will just pretend to be im cool with it, cse I dnt want any argument anymore. Im totally tired to face it. At this moment, I just feel like tackling ppl on the field. Im so gonna do tht later on. I really want u to be there for me but it seems so difficult for u to do tht for me, so many prblms tht occured at the last minute. Im so gonna be pissed off if u're not going to be there for me but u're going to somewhere else. Thats it, im really clear with my statement here , so deal with it if u tend to go somewhere else. Suck it up yall.

When someone tht we love hardly explain everythng to us, it just make u feel tht we are not tht important to them

it tends to happen

Valentine's day is coming soon. I dnt knw whether im celebrating it with him or not. If im celebrating it with him, it means tht it will be the first proper valentines tht I will be with someone tht I love. I won't be expect that much but the least u can do is being there for me on that day. It would make me feels more happy than enough. I just realised tht on every single v'day, I was celebrated it with my bestfriend, auww how I miss it. Looking towards it perhaps ?

Day after day, after 4hours of meeting him without any argument make my life feels like im the only happier person whos living in this world. To be truth, I am really happy with u but at times u really testing my patient. Thats why, u really make me wanna stay silents at certain times. Thnkgod tht I really love u, but pls stop hurting me like u used to do. Bcse it may loose my hopes on u. Please im begging u to be like the first time we met, the old memories ;')

Anyway, I learned alot at training just now. I guess I knw more abt rugby now. Im happy when I learn to play better, cse it really helps me on the game. Gonna practice it always :)

Sometimes people just don't want to live like how they don't want it, but it tends to happen.