dreaming

108 of rosses ? Candle light dinner ? Its all bullshit but i am still waiting for it. It is more like a dream that will never come true. Aiyaya, keep dreaming on Lena, and u keep on giving me false hopes.

Bila hari nak berubah ? Hari penuh dgn keceriaan mungkin ? Bukan hari penuh dgn kemarahan or kesedihan, haih

Singapore games

After each day of non-stop argument, u at least make me smile once :) 2 hours bfre the departure time was really a last minute decision. We fought all night long and at the end, I received a sweet msg from him. I was really touched after I read the msg. I just can't believe tht u can still think wisely and be that sweet baby. My wished came true, thnks baby :)

I reached Mont Kiara sharply at .730 in the morning ysterday. I can't believe Rahim reached there earliar than me, haha. So sweet to see him really into it when hes begging his dad to send him to RSC. He supposely went to RSC by car, unfortunately his dad's car got blocked by other car, so he went there by motorcycle. Auww just can't imagine that he rather ride on the motorcycle just not to be late for it. Proceed, I just can't sleep all the way to Singapore since we played a lot of game in the bus. The game was really fun and I really enjoyed it :)

Basicly, the game at Singapore yesterday was the great game ever. So far, I guess we played better this time. A lot of improvement, nice job done by us even there was slightly mistake tht we've done but to be compared with the last time game, its way different. Now every single player knows what to do, and to be true, I really knw what is exactly my job on the field now. Its really interesting tho . I cannot wait for the next game, teheee.

I love surprise

I hope to see ur face early in the morning, how I wished ure doing me a surprise

drive me crazy

This is insane, I am supposely be sleeping right now and waking up at 6 am but wht happen to me ? Its already 3.08 am, urggh this is really bad. Going to Singapore soon, weee.

Like wht i've expected, I dnt think so u're going. I just can't live with false hopes, it makes me sick. I will just pretend to be im cool with it, cse I dnt want any argument anymore. Im totally tired to face it. At this moment, I just feel like tackling ppl on the field. Im so gonna do tht later on. I really want u to be there for me but it seems so difficult for u to do tht for me, so many prblms tht occured at the last minute. Im so gonna be pissed off if u're not going to be there for me but u're going to somewhere else. Thats it, im really clear with my statement here , so deal with it if u tend to go somewhere else. Suck it up yall.

When someone tht we love hardly explain everythng to us, it just make u feel tht we are not tht important to them

it tends to happen

Valentine's day is coming soon. I dnt knw whether im celebrating it with him or not. If im celebrating it with him, it means tht it will be the first proper valentines tht I will be with someone tht I love. I won't be expect that much but the least u can do is being there for me on that day. It would make me feels more happy than enough. I just realised tht on every single v'day, I was celebrated it with my bestfriend, auww how I miss it. Looking towards it perhaps ?

Day after day, after 4hours of meeting him without any argument make my life feels like im the only happier person whos living in this world. To be truth, I am really happy with u but at times u really testing my patient. Thats why, u really make me wanna stay silents at certain times. Thnkgod tht I really love u, but pls stop hurting me like u used to do. Bcse it may loose my hopes on u. Please im begging u to be like the first time we met, the old memories ;')

Anyway, I learned alot at training just now. I guess I knw more abt rugby now. Im happy when I learn to play better, cse it really helps me on the game. Gonna practice it always :)

Sometimes people just don't want to live like how they don't want it, but it tends to happen.

reality of world

Going through a rough day but im just glad to say tht im done with my Marketing re-exam paper just now. Thnkgod, is not tht hard like the last exam. Lect still can discussed with us abt the exam's question, so not like real exam -.-' Anyway, I went to Tesco and bought the minced chicken cse I was thinking of cooking spaghetti for the rest. I reached home with a high spirit to cook de spaghetti but when I saw hes getting ready for somewhere, I just don't feel like eating anymore. All the spirit just felt apart and turned me down. Thankyou so much. Pity minced chicken in the fridge, heh.

After all, im still with my tought. Enough said, im done with talking. Yeah, u right. I always want to win on every argument. That is one of the #fact. Im standing on what is right and thts why I will nvr want to be loose unless im done with it. I'll shut my mouth if tht is all u want. Like seriously, Im bleeding inside, I just can't stop the blood running out. Problems occur just like a blood which can't be stop easily when it starts to bleed. After one by one it happen, I just cant believe it.

Like I said bfre, its hard to be like the old times. Its hard to bring u back like last time, and how i really miss it. I guess this is it, im gonna run awy and stay silents. Honestly, it is difficult for me to let out the words infront of ur face,boy haih.

This is world, full of lies

unlucky weather

It was raining heavily, so cold with the strong wind, shuddered under my wet clothes, only God knows how cold am I. Waiting for the rain to stop just to start training back was a bad idea. My car almost got stuck in the flood, thnkgod it was not. I was so paranoid driving alone at that time, dnt knw wht to do if my car get stuck in the flood. Arr, bad experienced I guess

twenty four

I guess I was so desperate to go out and thts why I followed my dad went for his meeting at Cheras just now. I also dnt knw why I made a decision to follow him to such a boring place like that but mayb I guess it is better than im sitting at home and online all the way frm the morning till the moon came out. Anyway, I just went out for less than 3 hours and I was back at home again. I was online for awhile and I felt asleep. Im tired of staring at the laptop's screen, I had enough.

I woke up and received a call and message(s) like wht i've expected. Guess wht? The best way is to ignore it bfre im getting pissed. Anyway, I just can't sleep right after tht , so I went out with 2 kiddo Mai and Atn. We went to Upstairs for a cute little dinner and went to eat 'cucuk-cucuk' :)

I din't expect for 24 hours, 1 minutes is more than enough. Is it still hard for you ?

im hanging

I really miss you,

But this is what happened when u left me hanging like this.

fitness fitness

I just realised tht after the day I came back home for holiday, my routine was only online, eating and sleeping. What a bo-ring routine. Baru 2 hari, belum lg 1 week -.- Dammmmn, blh jadi gemok mcm ni.

I need more fitness. I have to be fit for next week game. Can't wait to start playing for Singapore league, I hope I play better this year. Woooohoooo.

RE-EXAM ! Next Wednesday, I really have to start study now. Arrrrrr

I hope its not too late to wish all my chinese friends or half- chinese, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. Hope u guys having a prosperety year. Dnt frget, angpau na lai :)

the old you

memories abt the old

I guess i'll just put a high consideration on u. Everyone is changing, no one stays remain like the old you. I wont mind if its a good ones but yeah if its a bad one, im tired of keep reminding u. Asking people to change for something good is easiar than asking ppl to act like the old times. So, I shall just keep quiet and act like I dnt fucking care anymore. Don't u raise ur voice if u feel like im neglecting u. U choose this way so dnt u open up ur mouth. Im just tired, so dnt bother me.

long lost friends

Well this week, straight 2 days, I've met up 2 of my long lost friend. Not that lost but yeah lama gilaa tak jumpa. And yg plg penting mrk masih hidup, haha. First, it was my bussiness partner, Kroll. Yeah dulu kami jual satu product ni tapi mcm tak pernah nmpk bussiness ni bergerak, but so far masih tak bankrupt lg, heh pelik disitu -.- After so long of promising to see each other, last Monday we managed to meet up even for awhile. Secondly, it was my guy bestfriend last time, now not really , aceehhhh but still keep contacting each other, Irwin Arin. Knows him since I was early form 2, quite long tho. Haha makin gendut Cik Abe ni tp okayy maintain la jgk kn. I stil remembered tht I've used to have crush on him long long time ago, haih so funaaaaay. Haha, but yeah now not anymore, we're friends forever and not to be meant togthr since last time or anytime.

Mai ckp dieorg terlampau merasakan kasih syg ktorg smpai trlalu appreciate dpt jumpa ktorg, omgoddd howw sweet is that kn kn ? Anyway, im glad to see both of my good friend. Everyone is growing and yet we still keep reminding each other tht we're still friends. So, who gonna be the next long lost friend tht im gonna meet up soon ? :)

go away

Arghh, Period pain pls go away :'(